Everyone who knows me knows I can't handle uncertainty...or random change...all too well.
My living situation is still undetermined. Currently Andy and Mike are jobless, meaning they are leaving come August if they are still not employed.
Chris doesn't know if he is moving in or not. If he can get a mortgage for an apartment complex, he can afford to live with me, if not, he can't. (Meaning he wants to be a landlord)
Now, factor in that I don't know what is going to happen with my job.
Jenn is quitting. Sarah is undecided. No word from Karen (I plan on calling her tomorrow and talking to her...hopefully I can talk her into staying)
Nicole is going to take a few shifts on desk (she used to be a resturant server)
As stated before, Sanjay is bailing on himself, which is one hell of a morale kill...
Factor in my girlfriend leaving at the end of summer, before my birthday...
(yeah, this isn't a HUGE deal, because I knew this before I started dating her, but it does add a little to it all)
Now add in the fact that this town has turned into a giant steaming pile of horse shit, covered with little insects that all THINK they rule the pile, and you have a recipe for nervous breakdown...
My mom keeps telling me "Don't worry, Mike and I will be getting a house soon..."
I keep telling her that unless it's a building with two apartments, that doesn't help me at all. I am NOT going to move back in with my parents. I simply won't do it.
A: Mom hates snakes. I am not getting rid of Damien.
B: Mom is allergic to cats. I am not getting rid of Eddie.
c: I am 23 fucking years old, going on 24 in 2 months...I am NOT moving back in with my mom and becoming a dependant again. It's just NOT happening.
Don't get me wrong, I love mom, I love Mike and I am proud to call him Dad...but out of all of my friends who moved out, I am the only one that hasn't had to move back in with his parents.
I am proud of that fact.
(Not that there is anything wrong with the people who had to move back in. The world is hard, and sometimes you get the ground knocked out from under you...)
As stated before, I would have no problems renting an apartment from my mom if she owned the building, but I am not living with her again.
I just have no idea what is going on in my life right now...and I have no idea who I can even talk to about it...
I mean, yeah, I have alot of friends who love me...
but I don't think there is anything any of them could say or do to make this just magically better...
short of giving me a shitload of money...
I just feel so...
lost...
useless...
and helpless...
Ugh.
-KOS
My living situation is still undetermined. Currently Andy and Mike are jobless, meaning they are leaving come August if they are still not employed.
Chris doesn't know if he is moving in or not. If he can get a mortgage for an apartment complex, he can afford to live with me, if not, he can't. (Meaning he wants to be a landlord)
Now, factor in that I don't know what is going to happen with my job.
Jenn is quitting. Sarah is undecided. No word from Karen (I plan on calling her tomorrow and talking to her...hopefully I can talk her into staying)
Nicole is going to take a few shifts on desk (she used to be a resturant server)
As stated before, Sanjay is bailing on himself, which is one hell of a morale kill...
Factor in my girlfriend leaving at the end of summer, before my birthday...
(yeah, this isn't a HUGE deal, because I knew this before I started dating her, but it does add a little to it all)
Now add in the fact that this town has turned into a giant steaming pile of horse shit, covered with little insects that all THINK they rule the pile, and you have a recipe for nervous breakdown...
My mom keeps telling me "Don't worry, Mike and I will be getting a house soon..."
I keep telling her that unless it's a building with two apartments, that doesn't help me at all. I am NOT going to move back in with my parents. I simply won't do it.
A: Mom hates snakes. I am not getting rid of Damien.
B: Mom is allergic to cats. I am not getting rid of Eddie.
c: I am 23 fucking years old, going on 24 in 2 months...I am NOT moving back in with my mom and becoming a dependant again. It's just NOT happening.
Don't get me wrong, I love mom, I love Mike and I am proud to call him Dad...but out of all of my friends who moved out, I am the only one that hasn't had to move back in with his parents.
I am proud of that fact.
(Not that there is anything wrong with the people who had to move back in. The world is hard, and sometimes you get the ground knocked out from under you...)
As stated before, I would have no problems renting an apartment from my mom if she owned the building, but I am not living with her again.
I just have no idea what is going on in my life right now...and I have no idea who I can even talk to about it...
I mean, yeah, I have alot of friends who love me...
but I don't think there is anything any of them could say or do to make this just magically better...
short of giving me a shitload of money...
I just feel so...
lost...
useless...
and helpless...
Ugh.
-KOS
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they always do, you know that.
we have our up's and downs..
youll be back up soon.
p.s.: come get that ghost out of my basement
p.p.s: i wanna go swimming at Stillwater with you and the boys after i can (i.e.: week & 1/2 to go [tattoo healing]) is that a possible thing to do? i hope so.. i miss you guys.