Today without a doubt has become the worst day of my life.
I found out on Thursday that my Uncle went missing since Tuesday. he had gotten involved in a lot of things (probably at least three affairs, who knows what else). he sent my Aunt, his wife, out to run some errands and when she got back, she found a note, and him gone (with his gun only).
On Thursday my Aunt filed the missing person's report (my Uncle would leave at times). on Friday, they found his body. he climbed a tree that overlooked the pond on his property and hung himself. he had it set-up so that if that didn't work, he would shoot himself.
This totally blows my mind. he was the man that was the closest thing I ever had to a father growing up (my dad left when I was 9 1/2 months old). the person I went to for advice if I was unsure about something or needed help. someone that I looked up to. and this happens.
it just blows. in a lot of ways, I really don't know what to make of this. it boggles my mind. he was someone that had four grandsons (one who was born about 2 or 3 months ago). he killed himself right around the birthday of his daughter and his first grandson. and right around Christmas.
I don't know, this just sucks. I know a few people read this. I'm just kind of venting right now! in some ways, I feel kind of better writing this. in part, just don't know anymore and hping that someone might be able to give me some sense as to what happened! anyone have any way of making sense of this?
I found out on Thursday that my Uncle went missing since Tuesday. he had gotten involved in a lot of things (probably at least three affairs, who knows what else). he sent my Aunt, his wife, out to run some errands and when she got back, she found a note, and him gone (with his gun only).
On Thursday my Aunt filed the missing person's report (my Uncle would leave at times). on Friday, they found his body. he climbed a tree that overlooked the pond on his property and hung himself. he had it set-up so that if that didn't work, he would shoot himself.
This totally blows my mind. he was the man that was the closest thing I ever had to a father growing up (my dad left when I was 9 1/2 months old). the person I went to for advice if I was unsure about something or needed help. someone that I looked up to. and this happens.
it just blows. in a lot of ways, I really don't know what to make of this. it boggles my mind. he was someone that had four grandsons (one who was born about 2 or 3 months ago). he killed himself right around the birthday of his daughter and his first grandson. and right around Christmas.
I don't know, this just sucks. I know a few people read this. I'm just kind of venting right now! in some ways, I feel kind of better writing this. in part, just don't know anymore and hping that someone might be able to give me some sense as to what happened! anyone have any way of making sense of this?
thanks for the comments. yeah, it sucks. our entire family is along the lines of "How could he be so selfish" as well as "why didn't he just talk to one of us".
he had things rigged up. it was planned. it sucked.
at his wake, 3 different chapters of the Red Cross showed up.
I think the big thing that everyone said was that he was selfish and only thinking of himself when this happened.
and I agree, I need to be here. that's for sure. got too much to do here. everyone in our family feel that way now. we all need to be here. for each other and to do what we can to help others!