vacation has started...actually started last Friday. so far, I've installed some blinds at my Mom and step-dad's house and met a friend for dinner. the part that bites is this friend is someone I would love to date. except she said how she started seeing someone. someone she was friends with, so she decided why not.
yet not really surprised by this, since this seems to be the story of my life. girls I know would rather be single and miserable then consider dating me. and I've been told many times how someone would like to meet someone like me...but not interested in dating me. oh well, I've always had this believe that I've lived most of my life alone (so far, true) and I'll die alone as well. where no one misses me when I'm gone.
so what a wonder start for a vacation. what's next? well, got some cleaning to do. and figure out if there is any hope out there for a 42 year old guy to find someone who might be interested in him, despite being since for over 10 to 15 years now. why single so long? 5 years in Res Life, 2 1/2 years in grad school, about 5 years trying to find a job, and 2 years working in a job that consumed me. and I don't like bars.
or just resign myself to being single. who knows.
thanks, rant over. can't post it elsewhere. time to get back to the vacation of doing very little. tired out and no money. tight budget for about 4 months. and then I can get things to buy....because if you're life is spent alone, at least having things around you is better than nothing. I guess!
