well, woke up this morning at the un Godly hour of 6 AM, since I had to work at 7:30 AM (1/2 drive and all). after my shower, I noticed that I only have 21 hours for next week....f*ck, what's going on (I'm usually getting close to 30 hours).
so I asked someone today, the person in charge of bulk food. she's a tell it like it is type person, and we kind of bonded (after I helped her clean up the 16 lbs. or so of peanuts I accidentally knocked over). she said "Yeah, July is our slow month, so be happy if you get any hours".
damn, and I was catching up.
so I worked today. hmm, what do I do, what do I do? double check, some of the others have less hours. okay, so don't feel too bad.
one guy has a problem, can't work his shift. hmmm, right before mine. let's see....yeah, I'll take it!
so I work 10 hours on Monday, and I've bumped my hours up to 26 for the week....score!
so now I have ot either figure out a way to keep this up (getting hours) or figure out a way to get more money. any suggestions out there?
yeah, that's about it. and time for some self analyzing. the counselor I was speaking with at the end of last year thinks it might help. mind you, I started because of my uncle's suicide (you know its an issue when you go through the scenario over and over in your head, without meaning to). although I know there is more going on in my head than just that (you know, middle child syndrome, the fact that I've given up hope for a relationship and such). yippee skippy for me....so if I post odd questions here, you know why!
soo, all that said and done, what about you?
so I asked someone today, the person in charge of bulk food. she's a tell it like it is type person, and we kind of bonded (after I helped her clean up the 16 lbs. or so of peanuts I accidentally knocked over). she said "Yeah, July is our slow month, so be happy if you get any hours".
damn, and I was catching up.
so I worked today. hmm, what do I do, what do I do? double check, some of the others have less hours. okay, so don't feel too bad.
one guy has a problem, can't work his shift. hmmm, right before mine. let's see....yeah, I'll take it!
so I work 10 hours on Monday, and I've bumped my hours up to 26 for the week....score!
so now I have ot either figure out a way to keep this up (getting hours) or figure out a way to get more money. any suggestions out there?
yeah, that's about it. and time for some self analyzing. the counselor I was speaking with at the end of last year thinks it might help. mind you, I started because of my uncle's suicide (you know its an issue when you go through the scenario over and over in your head, without meaning to). although I know there is more going on in my head than just that (you know, middle child syndrome, the fact that I've given up hope for a relationship and such). yippee skippy for me....so if I post odd questions here, you know why!
soo, all that said and done, what about you?
I hate the re-thinking of scenarios thing. I had a car accident ages ago, a bus ran up by the butt of my car and there was absolutly nothing I could have done about it yet I continue to think about it and blame myself for it freaking my mother out (who was in the car with me). I dunno how to get past that...