hellsbells21

Okay so I apologise this blog isn't going to be very funny or interesting just mainly me whinging about how pathetic I am.
And it goes a little something like this a few years ago I was friends with this amazing girl who had strong feelings for me but at the time I was adamant that I was straight despite the fact that we flirted outrageously, when we touched it was electric and one day we even shared a kiss...I kept denying her my whole attention and my full affection and one day unsurprisingly she lost interest in me. She has an amazing girlfriend who makes her happier than I have ever seen her and don't get me wrong I am happy for her that she's found that. But the day she lost interest me was the day she left me alone with a ticking time bomb, one that over the last few months finally went off. Now I know I am attracted to women and that back then I was in love with her. Now that I 've realised it though, I feel like I've lost the only person that could have helped me make sense of how I was feeling, teach me about the bi girl/lesbian scene and how to navigate my way through the many aspects of being a bi/lesbian girl nowadays. I guess I just feel really lonely atm and don't really know how to meet girls that might lack me back. Humph I am pathetic!