Wednesday Dec 11, 2002

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I'm so sleepy today.

Sunday was an all-day fight with Dad, and I couldn't calm down enough to get to sleep until 3:30am. Of course, my luck, I had to get up at 7:30am the next morning. Getting up wasn't hard, it almost felt like a long nap, it was the staying up that hurt. By 4pm I couldn't keep my eyes open any longer, went home and straight to bed. I asked my Mom to wake me at 5pm so I could get to sleep at a decent hour that night. She did, but I still ended up going to bed past midnight. *shrug*

Monday was more fighting and confusion. Do I say I'm sorry when I'm not, or do I stand my ground? Pondered that half the night.

Last night was Mom and my jewelry party. Lots of cafiene (cafine?) real late at night. I did crash at about 1am though, so that's fairly early.

Now I'm ready for a nap, but I'm not sure if that's going to happen or not. It feels as though I have something to do, something I've been meaning to do, but I can't figure what that is.

Anywhoo, love you my babies...
kiss
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kid_607_evil_ins:
i think I spent almost 27 years trying to decide whether it is appropriate to apologize for things where I am not the culprit. Finally, I was at work, helping this guy record his album and my nervous tick of "oh, sorry" kept kicking in whenever something happened out of my control. He kept saying, "You don't have to be sorry". He said it like 12 times before it sunk in. That was a really cool moment. Then i went to his house and saw he is a Nietsche fanatic and laughed. It must have had a big effect on him.

So, harness your chi...or your chai. Whichever you please smile
hellkitten:
I use to do the same thing. I don't anymore, I just couldn't take the blame any longer, it began eating me up inside. Now I just have to contend with my father suddenly wanting everything his way or no way. Oi. What a life, eh? ,o)

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