Rip it all to shreds and let it go...
Today. A day. Up way too early. Didn't sleep well last night. Getting used to that. Among other things I am equally, if not more displeased about.
But whatever.
Business was slow at the store. I hate it when that happens. I had to take the man to the doctor today. That was a fiasco, and a rather expensive one from what I understand. I know the feeling. I owe my doctor's office lots. Having no health insurance really sucks.
So does having no money. Fuck. Me.
I pay money to cut and burn
Pictures like the lessons that I need to learn
Must get my ass motivated. Or moving, it isn't that I'm not motivated. I think I shall pray to the good Lord that he might throw a little good luck my way.
I have Lucky Sprite hanging from my rearview mirror, along with my happy bunny air freshener, and my angel star.
And let us not forget about my plastic jesus...mounted on the dashboard of my car.
I bought a sacred heart jesus candle at the grocery store for .99 cents. It was in the section they reserve for all the Latina products. I don't even know the PC way to say that, and furthermore, I think the whole concept of segregating a particular race's food products, something about that seems a bit bigoted to me.
I need more weed
neuropsychopharmaceuticals can bite my ass.
sent out my resume about a part time customer service gig. phone work, I can do in my sleep. Time to put that back to work if I can. I almost seriously considered applying at starbucks. I hear you can get insurance being PT.
hmmm....I wonder....
I'm going to apply for food stamps. I have now been out of a real job for 4 months, one of which I was seriously ill. It doesn't seem like it could have been that long. I have to do something soon. Since it doesnt look like I will be going back to school this semester. *sigh*
I need more ink. I am feeling the need for continuous and copious amounts of pain. I'm thinking of just concentrating on the back work I want done. I want some of those nifty stars. I'm a sucker for symmetry. Still pondering the HellCat tattoo. This one must be the most carefully planned of all. I wish I could draw.
If at first you don't succeed, I don't suggest you play Russian roulette...
and with that...
I say to thee.
goodnight, cruel world. Laugh while you can, because I'm coming to kick you in the balls again in the morning.
Yes, I think it's safe to say
I feel good about the place
That I've been made in the world today
I get all sticky inside
When I close my eyes
And I open up wide
I see pictures in the clouds
So obscene I gotta laugh out loud
I look back to find my way
Reminisce and laugh about the good old days
Yeah, when I saw my brother above me
I remember the words he said
When you dream you hit bottom
Chances are good you're gonna wake up dead
I'll be up on top when the sky falls down
And it all goes wrong again
Yeah, I will be sitting on top
When It All Goes Wrong Again
Yeah, I will be sitting on top
When It all goes wrong.
Yes I think it's safe to say
I feel good about the sins
That I inflict on my own skin
I pay money to cut and burn
Pictures like the lessons that I need to learn
I see faces on the ceiling
I see them move, I hear them singing
I lay back in here by myself
I think about the time that I've spent in hell
When I saw my brother below me
I remember the words he said
When you leave you wake up happy
Then you'll sleep right in your own warm bed
I'll be singing in the rain when the bad dreams com
And It All Goes Wrong Again
Woh, I will be singing in the rain
When It All Goes Wrong Again
Woh, Woh I will be singing in the rain
When It All Goes Wrong
Where are you gonna be
When it all comes down
What are you gonna do
When it all comes down
Where are you gonna be
When It all comes down
What are you gonna do
When it all comes down on you
I'll be sitting on top of the world
When It All Goes Wrong Again
I'll be sitting on top of the world
When It All Goes Wrong Again
I'll be sitting on top when the sky falls down
And It All Goes Wrong Again
I will be sitting on top when it all goes wrong again
Again and again
**edited because I cannot sleep**
what is this thing? cannot I not be free of it once more? I wish I could show you where I used to be someone else. I was not always this cowering, shuddering, fearful creature. I was once something more alive, something more fluid, and yet, here I am, solid, but invisible.
I do not know what to make of it all.
something for the lovely....
"I love airplanes. I think, when you are at a high pitch of emotion, it is the only way of travelling which fits with your own heart. Airplane and love, the sky and the sadness and the hope were one only thing. I thought of you, remembering carefully everything, and I read the book which I like yet better than the other one, and we had whisky and a nice lunch: creamed chicken, chocolate ice cream. I thought you should have liked so much the landscape, the clouds and the sea, the coast, the woods and villages - we saw the ground very well and you would have smiled your warm, beautiful and childish smile." Simone de Beauvoir
Today. A day. Up way too early. Didn't sleep well last night. Getting used to that. Among other things I am equally, if not more displeased about.
But whatever.
Business was slow at the store. I hate it when that happens. I had to take the man to the doctor today. That was a fiasco, and a rather expensive one from what I understand. I know the feeling. I owe my doctor's office lots. Having no health insurance really sucks.
So does having no money. Fuck. Me.
I pay money to cut and burn
Pictures like the lessons that I need to learn
Must get my ass motivated. Or moving, it isn't that I'm not motivated. I think I shall pray to the good Lord that he might throw a little good luck my way.
I have Lucky Sprite hanging from my rearview mirror, along with my happy bunny air freshener, and my angel star.
And let us not forget about my plastic jesus...mounted on the dashboard of my car.
I bought a sacred heart jesus candle at the grocery store for .99 cents. It was in the section they reserve for all the Latina products. I don't even know the PC way to say that, and furthermore, I think the whole concept of segregating a particular race's food products, something about that seems a bit bigoted to me.
I need more weed
neuropsychopharmaceuticals can bite my ass.
sent out my resume about a part time customer service gig. phone work, I can do in my sleep. Time to put that back to work if I can. I almost seriously considered applying at starbucks. I hear you can get insurance being PT.
hmmm....I wonder....
I'm going to apply for food stamps. I have now been out of a real job for 4 months, one of which I was seriously ill. It doesn't seem like it could have been that long. I have to do something soon. Since it doesnt look like I will be going back to school this semester. *sigh*
I need more ink. I am feeling the need for continuous and copious amounts of pain. I'm thinking of just concentrating on the back work I want done. I want some of those nifty stars. I'm a sucker for symmetry. Still pondering the HellCat tattoo. This one must be the most carefully planned of all. I wish I could draw.
If at first you don't succeed, I don't suggest you play Russian roulette...
and with that...
I say to thee.
goodnight, cruel world. Laugh while you can, because I'm coming to kick you in the balls again in the morning.
Yes, I think it's safe to say
I feel good about the place
That I've been made in the world today
I get all sticky inside
When I close my eyes
And I open up wide
I see pictures in the clouds
So obscene I gotta laugh out loud
I look back to find my way
Reminisce and laugh about the good old days
Yeah, when I saw my brother above me
I remember the words he said
When you dream you hit bottom
Chances are good you're gonna wake up dead
I'll be up on top when the sky falls down
And it all goes wrong again
Yeah, I will be sitting on top
When It All Goes Wrong Again
Yeah, I will be sitting on top
When It all goes wrong.
Yes I think it's safe to say
I feel good about the sins
That I inflict on my own skin
I pay money to cut and burn
Pictures like the lessons that I need to learn
I see faces on the ceiling
I see them move, I hear them singing
I lay back in here by myself
I think about the time that I've spent in hell
When I saw my brother below me
I remember the words he said
When you leave you wake up happy
Then you'll sleep right in your own warm bed
I'll be singing in the rain when the bad dreams com
And It All Goes Wrong Again
Woh, I will be singing in the rain
When It All Goes Wrong Again
Woh, Woh I will be singing in the rain
When It All Goes Wrong
Where are you gonna be
When it all comes down
What are you gonna do
When it all comes down
Where are you gonna be
When It all comes down
What are you gonna do
When it all comes down on you
I'll be sitting on top of the world
When It All Goes Wrong Again
I'll be sitting on top of the world
When It All Goes Wrong Again
I'll be sitting on top when the sky falls down
And It All Goes Wrong Again
I will be sitting on top when it all goes wrong again
Again and again
**edited because I cannot sleep**
what is this thing? cannot I not be free of it once more? I wish I could show you where I used to be someone else. I was not always this cowering, shuddering, fearful creature. I was once something more alive, something more fluid, and yet, here I am, solid, but invisible.
I do not know what to make of it all.
something for the lovely....
"I love airplanes. I think, when you are at a high pitch of emotion, it is the only way of travelling which fits with your own heart. Airplane and love, the sky and the sadness and the hope were one only thing. I thought of you, remembering carefully everything, and I read the book which I like yet better than the other one, and we had whisky and a nice lunch: creamed chicken, chocolate ice cream. I thought you should have liked so much the landscape, the clouds and the sea, the coast, the woods and villages - we saw the ground very well and you would have smiled your warm, beautiful and childish smile." Simone de Beauvoir
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How long have you been having insomnia? I had that a couple of weeks ago, when I was sick. Ugh! Not getting any sleep when you're sick is the worst! Hope it goes away!
(Have you seen Dream For an Insomniac? Adorable movie!)
Have a great weekend!
Oh, to answer you question, I wear vintage clothes and make alot of my own clothes out of vintage dish rags and fabric scraps. I have also had a handmade purse company for awhile. Right now, though, my assignment in business class is to focus on one thing, so I am doing funky gym bags.