heatherisaboynow

I’m having a bad vibe free zone in my flat tonight and the music is giving me goosebumps because I’m not used to feeling so truly relaxed.

But like the song ‘Four Seasons In One Day’, wherever there is comfort there is pain.

For the first time since she died, I’m thinking about my mum in more than a passing way. Before tonight, I resolved...
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I’m a bit like The Thing because I absorb people. If I really like someone, I turn in to them a little bit, I absorb little parts of them. When I’m done I eat them.

Was in Tesco earlier getting coffee and this woman with her kid turned up and they were alive...so I turned my head to look at them and I was alive. The woman looked back at me scowling as if to say what you lookin at, probably thought I was an Irish gangster on account of my peaky blinders esque hairdo, which is alive. So I...
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I wish I could say I was the one who gremlins could lean on, the one who could be there for them, but I was too selfish.

It wasn’t making me happy.

I just ain’t got the right personality for it anymore but I look forward to moving on with my life and finally being at peace with myself.

And I look forward to change,...
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Every time I leave the flat I think, “if I die today this is my outfit for the rest of eternity,” knowing that if I become a ghost I won’t be able to change my clothes.

So this morning I went out in my birthday suit for easy access. Well... eternity is a long time to not wank.

“These balloon-handed swine will take everythin’ off ya give ‘em half a chance and so would I, I will take the lot of it and I won’t have you preachin’ no balloon-headed integrity to me either. This is survival, cloudface!”

“You’d better believe I hope I’m going to Hell after this coz I tell you man, it’s gonna be a fucking improvement.” — In the Mowf of Madness, Johnny Carprentra

I don’t want to spend any time being influenced by all these people who shame me for not winning the game.

I don’t want to be shallow like them.

I don’t want to feel ashamed for not being good enough for all these neurotic psychopaths who want to control my life. I don’t owe anyone any apologies — you intrude upon my life then you’re...
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