heatherisaboynow

I showed you what you are underneath and when it’s all over you’ll all go back to ignoring everything. You’ll regain unconsciousness and all the pain will be for nothing. You disappoint me on behalf of yourselves.

You’ll continue to destroy the world in the name of, well, no reason at all. Pain transforms but it’s also difficult and I know for a fact you’ll...
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To deny evil is to deny what makes you human. To embrace only good is to paint yourself a delusion. In doing this you open yourself up to evil.

I know what I am. I have no delusions.

I’m not afraid of evil, I’m afraid of evil being done in the name of good.

With evil you know what to expect, it has no delusions....
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Last night I missed my meds so my brain was goin buzz buzz. Had this epic dream that I was wandering around Salford and Manchester and there was this disease that made everyone who caught it burn their homes down with them inside, they’d rise from the dead and act all scary.

But never mind that! The buses weren’t running! Fucking inconvenient.

I saw a...
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Carried in the depths of my being

Something I knew without seeing

Twisting around the debris in my heart
Witnessing it play its part

The burning filament staining my skin,
The turning soul gasping within
This face wears a mask of many sorrows
Volatile fate which the future borrows

I resume as before unchanged, unchained
Now I see what the mirror never explained.
Do you...
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It’s pretty shady how the Rastafarian witch doctor voodoo’d me to have a combination of autism and paranoia.

It’s like with aspergers, you can’t pick up on the little nuances ppl do in conversation.

But with paranoia you’re hyper alert to these things—you are always expecting ppl to hate you.

So you can never tell where you stand with someone cuz your brain is lying...
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I want people to be comfortable around me so I go out of my way to be “confident”. Cover my scars with smiles and easy laughter. It’s a whole nuther kinda crazy.

I also want to make good connections with the people I meet. But I can’t open up. I can’t make eye contact when I’m talking, it distracts me. Can’t talk about my feelings...
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Isn’t it funny how we categorise people? Like say someone’s got a personality trait... upon discovering it you instinctively associate that person with other traits that fall under such a category. We all do it. It’s evolution.

We sell people short of their full personality by making assumptions about who they are until we know them better. Sometimes this association game is so potent we’ll...
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