Not that it matters in the slightest bit but I don’t feel very “handsome”. When I look in the mirror I’m comforted, even soothed, by the familiarity of my face, as I think most probably do (if you got a lot of affection from parents at an early age this tends to happen later in life).
I have gained weight (I was underweight when I was younger), and so far have retained a reasonably well preserved body, I’m healthy.
The strangest thing is I sometimes attract negative attention on the internet because I am fairly photogenic and can point a camera, this seems to be difficult for some people. which is funny because in person I seem to be invisible to strangers. It’s only rarely I find someone attracted to me or even notice me.
I’m secure enough to not really need validating on my appearance — I don’t feel it really matters, but I do wonder about the subjectivity of it. I guess so long as you’re healthy, only insecure people will have a problem with your appearance. I mean, sure, I’m not the sexiest man on Earth but I do ok 😂