I wish I could blend in but I stand out wherever I go. It’s exhausting trying to get people to be comfortable around me and a lot of the time I never succeed at doing that. It’s important to me that I feel accepted because most of the time I don’t feel relaxed enough to be myself.
When other people are quiet that’s OK, but when I’m quiet there must be something wrong and if I let it get out of hand I end up having to leave. It’s basically Of Mice & Men and I’m the slow one who gets killed out of mercy. I wish I could understand other people.