im drunk and bored... bad combination... shitty combination...
i should just have strength enough to walk away, but for some reason, i want more. for once in my life, i would like to just not have to want boys....or sex... or anything. i dont want anything... yeah, that's a lie, but it'd be sweet.
i love drinking... but hate the song that just came on... it makes me sad. my ex quoted this song on my wall on day... as in, he wrote it on my wall... it's by cursive. "i can hardly get myself out of her bed, for fear of never lying in this bed again..." yeah... that's stale.
why do i start what i cant finish? seriously... maybe i dont finish anything, anymore... the song says all of this, but it applies... i get scared and run away... or just sit and wait... what am i waiting for? nothing, that's it... it must be
im really drunk. i vaguely remember lighting the cigarette i just finished... but it's cool. i ahve to wake up soon to go to my mom's... damn family get togethers...damn holidays. my mom is on break, and feels it necessary for me to come over everyday... i dont have a job and dont have anything better to do then sleep, so itmakes sense.
aye. i shouldn't have eaten that bean burritto... i hate that sick feeling... it's real stale. everything is stale. fuck it...
typing is a tad bit hard... but it's cool. i like it.
listen to me rambling. i feel bad for the poor guy who reads this.... it probably doesnt make sense... suck to that.
i wish someone cool was here... someone who i could have hot passionate sex with... but no... i have my ex, and a guy that i had bad sex with here... awkward much? all though, i could just do it with my ex... it's been better since we broke up... but i told coffee kids that i would be closed... but i have
an open door policy when im drunk... blat.
im really tired and really drunk and really "anxious"... hehe. i suppose i should go downstairs... but no one likees me... hehe, how emo is that>? im such an emo bitch... shit the words seem to be blurring as my eyes are closing. i shall smoke on more cigarette and say that it's all over.
i love you all. have a great holiday and an even better new year.. i realize it's generic, but it's all i've got. sorry.
blat... love always, yours truely, sincerely yours...
kim
i should just have strength enough to walk away, but for some reason, i want more. for once in my life, i would like to just not have to want boys....or sex... or anything. i dont want anything... yeah, that's a lie, but it'd be sweet.
i love drinking... but hate the song that just came on... it makes me sad. my ex quoted this song on my wall on day... as in, he wrote it on my wall... it's by cursive. "i can hardly get myself out of her bed, for fear of never lying in this bed again..." yeah... that's stale.
why do i start what i cant finish? seriously... maybe i dont finish anything, anymore... the song says all of this, but it applies... i get scared and run away... or just sit and wait... what am i waiting for? nothing, that's it... it must be
im really drunk. i vaguely remember lighting the cigarette i just finished... but it's cool. i ahve to wake up soon to go to my mom's... damn family get togethers...damn holidays. my mom is on break, and feels it necessary for me to come over everyday... i dont have a job and dont have anything better to do then sleep, so itmakes sense.
aye. i shouldn't have eaten that bean burritto... i hate that sick feeling... it's real stale. everything is stale. fuck it...
typing is a tad bit hard... but it's cool. i like it.
listen to me rambling. i feel bad for the poor guy who reads this.... it probably doesnt make sense... suck to that.
i wish someone cool was here... someone who i could have hot passionate sex with... but no... i have my ex, and a guy that i had bad sex with here... awkward much? all though, i could just do it with my ex... it's been better since we broke up... but i told coffee kids that i would be closed... but i have
an open door policy when im drunk... blat.
im really tired and really drunk and really "anxious"... hehe. i suppose i should go downstairs... but no one likees me... hehe, how emo is that>? im such an emo bitch... shit the words seem to be blurring as my eyes are closing. i shall smoke on more cigarette and say that it's all over.
i love you all. have a great holiday and an even better new year.. i realize it's generic, but it's all i've got. sorry.
blat... love always, yours truely, sincerely yours...
kim
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raydanger:
Merry Christmas! Happy New Year!
lightbulbjack:
Merry Ho Ho 