hawksley

i just realized that my wonderful weekend if over with. And so quickly too... I have to go back to work tomorrow... another double.

I thought that I was starting to get things figured out... but there's always something that throws me for a loop. I thought I was over him... but it turns out that I'm in denial.

I need to practice more too. I miss my guitar, I miss being on stage... I miss... feeling like I was doing something with meaning. I just need to get out of this town and away from these people. Go where no one knows me... well, atleast where no one can claim to know me.

I have a "to do" list for myself right now.... I doubt I'll start on this on time though, I'll probably wait until it's too late.

*clean my room [go through clothes, find out what weird odor is]

*exercise more

*read more

*write and play music more

*clean out car

*figure it out...

*look at the big picture

*prepare for nazi uncle's visit

*be kinder to those who I know I need

*forgive and forget

*drink more water and sleep more

*spend some time by myself...

*check in with the groups more

*do another set with Cait

*Avoid boys [especially religious fanatics and 'J' names]

*stop making lists that wont get accomplished

Eeep, i need to get going anyways. I have a long day ahead of me.

hugs and kisses: july 2