hawksley

Work Sucks...

but I move out soon...


And on that note, I'm going to go to sleep...

... I dont love you to death... but remember that I'd die if you left...

There are times when I wish I could just go back... I'm just not sure of what I would go back to...

I've been on a quest for self discovery and trying to figure out what I want... But the whole seek and you will find is nothing more than a logo to put on a condom wrapper or something...

Good news: I'm entering a...
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Sorry for any confusion, but I think that this name is going to stick with me for awhile

So I changed my name again... but I think this works Hopefully...

Something quasi interesting happened to me the other day... but before i go there, i should let you know the back story....

Last week I went to Fourth Coast [a coffee shop] with PullMyHair -and our friends John and Karen. We colored, it was fun... When we left though, I saw this cute boy leaving his car... and thought: damn... So, before we left I...
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i was so productive today!! i painted this stand thing orange, i made a purse, made a shirt, smoked, ate a shit load of food... and ordered a new computer. alright, it seems productive to me. I'll put a picture of my purse up in a section... [yeah, im a bit out of it still... damn drugs....] lots of love, but next time wear a...
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So, I think it's time to change my name again... but I dont know what to change it to... sigh.


Anyways, I went out to Speedphreak's house the other night for the camping business. PullMyHair and I spent a few hours there and it was nice seeing everyone again.

There's nothing really new other than that. I hope everyone is having fun camping and...
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I spent some time with my friend Keren tonight. A few beers, a few smokes... and a couple of broken hearts.... Sorry for the length and the emo theme of this entry, it's just what is on my mind...

We both have tragic endings to tragic beginnings [if that makes any sense] when it comes to these guys that we're still quasi hung up on....
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I dont really have very many updates... but I think I might have finally figured some things out... Which is good, because I'm that much closer to ending my quest this way. Score! I'm going to spend Monday walking around and figuring some more stuff out... My journal that day will be much better.
I'm really looking forward to camping too... it's going to be...
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So, the party was uneventful. If you didnt come, the only you missed was me being a bitch. Yeah... I was getting so frustrated and angry at everything...

My friend John invited people that I dont really like... at all, and he knows this. He didnt ask me... and I dont know, it wasnt cool with me.

Then, my one of my friends fucked my...
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Hey, I posted the directions for the party in the SGKzoo Group Yeah, so come... it's BYOB... but that's okay, right? Good luck in getting there. Hope to see you there. Love you all!

i just realized that my wonderful weekend if over with. And so quickly too... I have to go back to work tomorrow... another double.

I thought that I was starting to get things figured out... but there's always something that throws me for a loop. I thought I was over him... but it turns out that I'm in denial.

I need to practice more too....
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