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So, yeah, it's been a while.

Firstly, happy Xmas (or whatever hoilday you're celebrating at this time of year). Me, I'm working on sunday 25th, so thought I'd best say it now rather than later.

Life has been full of it's usual ups and downs of late, including my typical emotional rollercoaster. For some reason, particually at night, I just feel low, and like I wanna cry.
Last night, I had the realisation that I am a grown-up now. I've never been more grown up than I am now, nor have I ever felt it. Which kinda makes me a little sad I guess. So yeah that helps lot... And... what else...

Oh yeah, we're having fortnightly appointments with the consultant now, cos of Laura's BMI, the emergency C-Section with Mitch, and Lilly is growning small, so... yeah, that's another worry.

But hey, it could be worse. It could be snowing. Keep telling Laura, we are, this year, in a 100% better place than we were last year... I wonder if I say it to remind my self tbh, cos, emotionally I feel worse, but everything else is better I guess.

Oh yeah, and as of 2nd of January I am not working after 6pm at night. I told them to shove the night shift. It's fucking me up, big time.