I've been busy lately with trying to get my life back on track. i'm getting rid of most of my belongings, so i can be mobile again. I've got 5 years of art supplies, tech/gadgets, 1000 records, music equipment, skate decks, and vinyl toys i have to get rid of. It is weird editing my life. I'm scared of losing something by getting rid of the stuff, espcially the skate decks. I might hold off on most of those, i can't let go of my past when it comes to that.
I'm exhausted, i tried to play fallout 3 for a few hours and couldn't do it. I'm surprised i can even write. i'll prob wake up tomorrow, read this and change my mind. i hate writing, but i am forcing myself to do it. Why? i have not clue. Well, maybe i do. i have to get over this writing thing and go get tested for dyslexia. I'm too scared they will say something worse is wrong. But, they couldn't do much at my age, if i was dyslexic. I've gotten by so far. I just want the fear of people reading what i write to go away. It isn't as bad on the web as it is in person, cause you can't see my face ( oohh, the funny things i do in real life so people wont see how bad my grammar/ spelling skills are)
Anyway, the web has a shield of projection, almost like a security blanket. You feel protected cause there isn't full contact, like in real life....
ok enough i just caught myself rambling......i have the tired crazies.....
I'm exhausted, i tried to play fallout 3 for a few hours and couldn't do it. I'm surprised i can even write. i'll prob wake up tomorrow, read this and change my mind. i hate writing, but i am forcing myself to do it. Why? i have not clue. Well, maybe i do. i have to get over this writing thing and go get tested for dyslexia. I'm too scared they will say something worse is wrong. But, they couldn't do much at my age, if i was dyslexic. I've gotten by so far. I just want the fear of people reading what i write to go away. It isn't as bad on the web as it is in person, cause you can't see my face ( oohh, the funny things i do in real life so people wont see how bad my grammar/ spelling skills are)
Anyway, the web has a shield of projection, almost like a security blanket. You feel protected cause there isn't full contact, like in real life....
ok enough i just caught myself rambling......i have the tired crazies.....
i mean seriously...maybe its just im screwed in the brain pan and more men can relate to my blogs?
lol....
i should keep up my brootalness cos people seem to like it. hm i donno. i did this once before and got ridiculed.
it could end badly. we'll see
it comes on in spurts anyways.
XO