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Sunday Jun 07, 2009

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Welcome back, adoring masses. I missed you. Let's have a long hug. There. Isn't that better? Why are you smelling me? This hug is over.

So the last few months have had quite a few ups and downs. We'll start with the elephant. This is a lot of bitching, so feel free to skip to the good stuff.

SPOILERS! (Click to view)
For those of you keeping score, the ex left the city. She's got an apartment now with my friend that she allegedly didn't start hooking up with til a month after she left me, but who knows. The idea of that gal being single for an entire month is a little hard to swallow, but then most things are now. I knew what I was getting into (someone nicknamed "Maureen" a la Rent by the local lesbian gaggle ain't gonna be easy), and I knew that getting her to love me was going to take awhile. I guess I just wanted another shot at a "10". Nowadays, I don't even have a radar for that kind of thing. I spent 3 years not even looking at other girls, and now it's like I"m surrounded by these alien creatures I no longer recognize. I stare at them now, all of them. I have to. I have to look at every woman that passes by me now. I start to see something, but it's like someone is putting a magnet on my compass and I can't even tell who's hot, and who is kind. I don't have a type anymore. It's hard enough to remind myself every day that They're not all going to hurt me. I had trust issues before, but now, well. I went through the layers and layers of deceit, and each one worse than the last. I feel like I ate like the biggest box of Total to get to the toy surprise, which turned out to just be a moral wrapped in scar tissue and covered in doubt and wasted time. Wow. I can't even do analogies anymore. The thought that keeps coming back to me is this: We didn't live together. Yet within a month she was sleeping with someone new, calling them honey when they called, talking about how perfect it is now, and how they'll be getting a cat when they move into their new apartment together. So what the fuck was I? And where was she, that last year? Not with me, at least not emotionally. Either this new relationship is destined for failure, or I was a joke. The sad thing is, I don't know which I'd prefer.



Now, as far as my medical problems go, I finally got a diagnosis. It's not a big surprise really, considering how much I've been drinking lately.

Please get checked, and god bless.

My trip back to Baltimore was neat, but mired by the fact that I had the plague the whole weekend. My friends were nice enough to drag me out, but all that drinking did not help things. I left home with pinkeye too. Highlights:
In the bar, with a pitcher of steaming water. I'm fun.


A last supper panoramic at Friends. How perfect.




A few weeks ago I went to a wedding most rad out in Albuquerque, which is like Boston except completely the opposite. That is one city I'll be going back to. Some Highlights:
The church where the wedding was. I love churches in the Southwest. Plus, it kinda looks vaginal.


The groom and I, commencing in post-marriage, pre-coital ceremonies




The view from his hotel at during the after-party


Me floored, and apparently snarling at said view


We went to the aquarium the next day. It was awesome. To match the vagina above, see if you can find the phallic object. Like the church, I didn't notice it until my friends pointed it out.


Also did you know that jellyfish have no eyes of vertebraes? You probably did. But did you know that they have no BRAINS? Yeah. They're frickin aliens. And I think this information could be used against zombies. Like rubbing jellyfish all over us to ward them off?


Also, Soirale, one of my most favoritest people in world came to visit. Sleep didn't really happen, but fun did. She should come back.


Finally, there might be a "new hope" in the works. The kind with a vagina. She's very honest, and very patient. And in the world of interesting coincidences, she's on this site. We'll see, readers. We'll see.
I have to go now. I know, I know. But this was long, and I am tired. What did I tell you about begging?


Shut cho mouth, Mel. Let her be happy.

VIEW 27 of 27 COMMENTS
beautifulxalone:
I think SG should make a leprachan smiley... tongue
Jun 18, 2009
missprint:
Hey, we should grab a drink sometime before I leave on Wednesday.

Hope all is well.
Jun 29, 2009

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