I hate dating. I generally hate being in a relationship but I still want to have a family, one day.

WTF is wrong with me?

gadget:
Why do you want to have a family? I might have gone through something similar. Eventually I figured out I was trying to fill a void left by my parents, and that having a family wasn't going to fill that void. Only my parents could do that, so that void was just a part of me I had to accept would always be there. Then I reassessed what that meant in the grander scheme of my life. Being single isn't bad if you can manage to cultivate intimate friendships.

Read an interesting article on Childhood Emotional Neglect that really stuck with me. About how a lack of affection in your youth can account for social awkwardness and feelings of self worth.

The article indicated that it's ok to have emotions. That said, anybody that has pissed me off in the past can fuck right the hell off.

I feel better already.