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This year the holidays haven't taken as much out of me as they usually have the past few years. On 11/24/08 I became a father of twins and was happier than anyone in the world, but on Christmas morning the next month
my son Aiden had passed away. I had fallen farther than I ever thought possible and then the unthinkable happened. Just a short...
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I feel like crap today. I'm sick as a dog, tired as hell, and soo much left to do around the house. My dad is feeling the same way I am so maybe there's a bug going around or something. If it is a bug I hope it passes quickly because I don't have time to be sick. I have to clean the house between...
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Yesterday pretty much brightened up my whole month in an instant. I went over to my sister's house to watch my nephew while her and her husband went shopping. My nephew is 3 years old and is usually doesn't listen at all, but yesterday we had soo much fun. For almost 2 hours we just simply played with pillows. I'd throw one across the room...
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Today has been a lot better than I expected it to be. I can honestly say if it wasn't for my best friend I probably wouldn't be the same person I am now. When every one of my others friends turned away from me when I needed them most she was always there. She has been a rock to hold me up when all I...
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These past few days have been hell. My family really can't catch a break. First the death of one close to the family, next my father gets a severe case of the shingles, and today my mother was diagnosed with breast cancer again. This is now her 4th time getting cancer. The first two were ovarian cancer and the last two were breast cancer. That...
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I've been busy as hell all this week. The breaks on my sister's car went out on monday so i've been taking my niece to school and her to work and back all this week. I think i've been at home for maybe 10 hours all week. I've slept only 5 hours until this morning. I'm worn out, but the good thing is I don't...
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So for the past few days i've been having deja vu like crazy. I'm used to having it once a day, but now it's multiple times a day and I keep getting a sinking feeling in my stomach. Usually when this happens something goes wrong, but I hope this time is different. I had another sleepless night last night. I haven't been able to sleep...
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Dad had his shoulder surgery today. Overall it took 10 hours but he's feeling a lot better. There was a lot more damage than they thought there was going to be so it took longer than expected. They said he should be back to 100% by next week.

I've been working on a few poems lately and here's the last one I wrote called Child's Gaze.



How I wish I could see life through a child's eyes.
The world full of fortune with painted azure skies.
Instead I am stuck seeing with a blackened heart.
Pictures all the world corrupt, breaking down before the start.

When you are young you never know what...
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I'm so beyond worn out today. I haven't slept in a few days and right as I was about to fall asleep this morning my sister called needing me to take my niece to school. I don't really mind that all too much, but it's all the extras that they had me doing that pissed me off. I got there at 7 am and finally...
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