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Sunday Jun 03, 2012

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Last night my dad was in a some what depressed mood and when I asked him what's wrong he told me that he thought I was being held back because of him. After that he kept asking me what plans I had after he died because he kept insisting that he only had about 5 years left. It pretty much broke my heart because my dad is only 46 but already has had so much medically go wrong in his life and now the doctors tell him he only has at most 3 years before they will have to amputate his left hand as well as a possibility of his legs. I tried my best to convince him that he wasn't holding me back but nothing I said really got through. While it is true that I haven't worked this past year because i've wanted to stay home and look after him, it doesn't mean it's holding me back. I'm right where I want to be. He's the only family I have left that actually cares about me. I don't get along with my mother or my sisters and I haven't even spoken to my brother in 12 years. After he's gone i'm basically going to be alone. I want to be by his side right now, but i'm not really sure of what to do.
duckyfuzz:
Your dad sounds like a good guy and it seems that he's of the frame of mind that you living a good life is something that is extremely important to him. That speaks volumes about the kind of man he is and I really don't think there's anything you could say that would change his view on it. You just have to keep sticking it out.

There's not really a lot anyone else can say about this sort of thing, but my opinion is that you just have to take it day by day. Nothing else you can do.
Jun 5, 2012
elye:
hey no not yet but i just added a link to my blog were you can listen to his stuff online smile
Jun 7, 2012

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