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Sorry people, but I got another venting blog here.. Once again the lesbian has made me act immature and high-schoolish. She complimented me on my hair this past Friday, after twice asking her to ignore me. I know she was instigating it and I basically lowered myself down to her and you know what? I will always lower myself to her, thing is though, it's going to come down to a point where I insult her so badly, that she will eventually leave me alone.

Folks, the horns on this ram (aries) are growing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I had this beautiful skinny girl in my bed last Monday and I have been waiting for this moment for ever. What I did not expect was that I actually lasted a lot longer than i thought I would. I thought I'd explode within a minute, especially being that it's been three years since I've been with a woman, but it took me forever. Maybe I was nervous? I doubt it though. I totally have lusted after this girl for years now and I finally got to see her and touch her naked and I was not as inexperienced as I thought I was. I felt very confused after it was all over, and we didn't actually have sex cause there weren't any condoms. Confused I was, yet it was a much needed shot of confidence. This experience is going to help me so much because I now know that I can function as a decent human being in front of a beautiful woman and not think with my dick but my brain. It seems as though every time I put a challenge, I pass it. So, my desire to be with a thin woman is now over. I've had it, it didn't mean the world to me, so therefore, body type is basically out the door as a requirement for my next relationship. The biggest reason though that I think this will help is that I've kinda figured out something about how to get women: Just have fun. That's what it's gotta be all about at first. No over-analyzing things, just be yourself and love thyself as well because if you constantly try to be someone else, you're going to fail.

So, back to this lesbian idiot. I basically called her possessive, immature, and insecure to which she didn't even respond to. The only accusation she responded to was how I don't really know her. It just amazed me at how right I was and yet I'm the bad guy in this because I lowered myself. Fuck that, I'm not the bad guy in any of this drama. This girl thinks I'm so weak that I basically insulted her to her face, and she just said I was 'venting'. Hmm...so, thats why I know this shit is gonna happen again but in maybe a month or two or maybe four. The next time it happens though, I'm going to insult her really fucking bad though and it's just going to be one non-stop cycle until we eventually never see each other again or quit our jobs. I swear to you, I have never met anyone that is so worthless and takes so much from people than this girl. And yet I"m the fucking bad guy because I admitted to her how wrong I was for being obsessed. God I hate god and I hate lying, but if I gotta lie to her, then so be it, as long as she leaves me alone.