The questions of the Month of Study to this point:
On the "afraid" question-
To keep it relatively light, one thing I am afraid of is, I am sad to admit, heights. When I worked in an office building on the 10th floor or so (not that high, really, these days), I refused to go closer than six feet to a window. I always had visions of tripping and...
I can force myself to deal with this when I have to, but the basic rule is, "Higher than the roof of my house? Nope, not liking it." I enjoy going up on the roof, though. (About 40 feet up on the high side)
The new question for this day: You've been shipwrecked, stranded on an island for at least a year. One morning you are walking on the beach, and in the sand, you come upon one footprint. Yes, one. No footprints leading to it, no footprints leading from it. What is your reaction? (Bonus points if you choose to tell how it happened. )
The past few days my schedule has needed fine-tuning. Waking up too early (say at 3:00 AM) is actually worse than waking up too late (say 5 AM) because while I have more time to study and do things, my brain just does not work as well. I am hoping that 4 AM is the "Goldilocks time"- that is to say, "just right". We'll see.
I have another glucose curve scheduled for Fearless, a week from tomorrow. Meanwhile, while his attitude seems quite good, fortunately, but I am trying to get him to eat more. He has shown contempt for the canned diabetic food, so I am just feeding the dry diabetic food, and supplementing it with chicken. I've got a meatgrinder now (old family one, I've been washing it carefully for a day or so- it was in storage for 20 years or so, and was... rather dusty) and I will start making proper food in the next few days.
Meanwhile... Claw has the best spot in the world, apparently. 
Marriage in these modern internet times, where infidelity is so convenient.....I don't know how it fits in or if it is necessary for most. I think it's pretty important to try and learn whether someone is more of a poly instead of monogamous type....and also whether you are too. I think that's where you need to get to understand a lot more about someone's erotic make up and your own. A lot of people don't pay attention to this and it leads to misunderstanding or cross purposes. I kind of see marriage as a traditional institution and not so necessary for the poly types....except to protect legal rights to property and financial assets. But, more power to people no matter what ther lifetyles if they want to get married and make it work. I think you should go into it with open eyes with someone you feel you cannot live without. You should take a good hard look at yourself to see if you are the kind of person who can bond with someone in such a complete way and whether "marriage" is the type of arrangement which would make you happy or whether it would be stifling. I think there is a lot of pressure for people to get married or have children without giving enough weight to the level of commitment it should take......then again, we have gotten more lax about divorce. A person should think hard,"Do I mind taking the risk that if this fails I give up half my stuff?" If it is not a problem then go for it! Me, I don't care all that much about stuff so I'm alright with that.
Re handwriting-My handwriting is like code. Our military should adopt it.
Fear-most of mine are more abstract rather than immediate or tangible. I fear any of my loved ones getting into a bad car wreck. I also fear any of them getting caught up in a fire. I fear not getting to know enough about my parents as people through an adult's eyes and fear not getting to know their stories before they go.
Something I'm afraid of.....
I'm actually pretty scared sometimes of growing older and unatractive. I'm very aware at the moment that I'm 14 years older than some of the girls here on SG and I'm noticing changes in my body too. I know it's a fase that'll last a few years at most as your priorities in life change. Also I'm scared my life won't be what I sometimes feel a life should be. I don't know, kids/ some sort of stability!!
Bothering people, I hate having to ask for things twice, you know remind people. I can be really too, too scared to phone someone a second or third time. In work this sometimes gets me into trouble. I'm scared of my mom dying. I love her deeply.
Hahah, hell no idea. Probably I'd have immediate mixed reactions at first, relief, delight, dissapointment ending up scared and pretty angry. Maybe also an empty lost feeling, even more than before. Brought on by a feeling of possibilities...lost again. Then I would most certainly have to rationalize it for myself. So probably a boat mored into the sand. This handsome bare chested man jumped off and landed in the sand, looking for a quiet place to have a romantic meet with his mrs. But he got on board again rather sharpish. Probably scared away by my awfull singing coming out of the jungle
I understand your "phobia" though. DO you also have the same with highspeed trains heading your way? Or do you ever feel like pulling the wheel when someone else is driving? I do, briefly, I'm really pretty curious to just see what would happen. I sometimes sit on my hands in the car...as the voices are telkling me to just do it. hahaha