humph.
had a wonderful sleep interupted by disturbing dreams again....
before i actually fell asleep my dad ruined my perception of men. now all i think they are trying to do when they talk to me is get in my pants...why does my dad make things out to be so bad? you know i just have to take my life one day at a time and be cautious with my heart.
i already dont trust people and think everyone is out to get me (paranoia).. now added to that i dont think people i like have honerable intentions. my dad said i should play him at his own game hehe but you know, i dont have the heart or time for that shit. besides that just adds to the myth that all women are money hungry greedy pains in everyones arses. were not all like that. but i do think my dad and everyone else is right when they said i should be like a doberman and have my ears up all the time. my dad called me stupid like 5 times too hehe i can see why. i think im inexperienced and dumb too.
well im not dumb, i know whats going on, i just dont know how to turn it around or stop it.
well, i need to do my history exam today. its due tomorrow morning so .. yeah i have to do it. i dont feel like getting up and struggling to finish it before i have to turn it in at 9:30 am.. but i know ill be doing that anyway. i have a feeling were going to be busy today at the shop and i wont get to write it. ill just stay up late and do it.
i ordered some awesome games and stuff for my mom and myself from uncommon goods! its a rockin lil place you can get very cool swanky stuff from. i didnt need to buy anything but i got the urban myth game and a tampon case for myself... and the mother game and a paper weight for my mom for mothers day/fathers day. casue she is both and she is wonderful.
okay im bored with journaling. im going to take a walk around my neighborhood and go get some coffee.
had a wonderful sleep interupted by disturbing dreams again....
before i actually fell asleep my dad ruined my perception of men. now all i think they are trying to do when they talk to me is get in my pants...why does my dad make things out to be so bad? you know i just have to take my life one day at a time and be cautious with my heart.
i already dont trust people and think everyone is out to get me (paranoia).. now added to that i dont think people i like have honerable intentions. my dad said i should play him at his own game hehe but you know, i dont have the heart or time for that shit. besides that just adds to the myth that all women are money hungry greedy pains in everyones arses. were not all like that. but i do think my dad and everyone else is right when they said i should be like a doberman and have my ears up all the time. my dad called me stupid like 5 times too hehe i can see why. i think im inexperienced and dumb too.
well im not dumb, i know whats going on, i just dont know how to turn it around or stop it.
well, i need to do my history exam today. its due tomorrow morning so .. yeah i have to do it. i dont feel like getting up and struggling to finish it before i have to turn it in at 9:30 am.. but i know ill be doing that anyway. i have a feeling were going to be busy today at the shop and i wont get to write it. ill just stay up late and do it.
i ordered some awesome games and stuff for my mom and myself from uncommon goods! its a rockin lil place you can get very cool swanky stuff from. i didnt need to buy anything but i got the urban myth game and a tampon case for myself... and the mother game and a paper weight for my mom for mothers day/fathers day. casue she is both and she is wonderful.
okay im bored with journaling. im going to take a walk around my neighborhood and go get some coffee.
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Don't let it get you all paranoid though - that's just not worth the stress. When it gets down to it, humans are made to have sex so its on our minds an awful lot; we get nowhere if we don't procreate and continue the species. The important part is that yes men ( and women .. they get horny too, or so I've heard ) may think about getting into those pants - but the ones who can also treat you with respect and as something beyond a sex object, those are the ones you wanna get to know..
Or maybe I should just shush up now
Anyways - take care