dum dum dumdie dum...::smells arm:: eww i smell like a burnt chocolate candy bar! the tanning lotion i used today kinda stinks funny.... BUT HEY!! im fuckin lookin dark! only two quick trips to the tanning bed and im already for florida! yay for not burning on vacation! and not to metnion imma have wayyy cute tan legs after i get waxed. right now im not so cute.. lol lil spiky ewwww...
so the cicadas are here! i gave one to my cats this morning while they were outside.. they batted at it a lil bit and it held onto their fur.. and they shook it around and flipped out lol even cats dont like bugs!
yeah... i dont really have much to say that i can think of...
i did my ethics stuff today.. im working on finishing this history book..
im a lil perterbed that my friends dont call me when they say they are going too.. im taking this as a huge hint. i dont know if it is supposed to be that or not. but thats what it feels like so im going with that gut instinct. i think he just need time to do his own thing. im not even taking it as something personal..i dont understand it.. but i accept it. i wish i could be there and talk to him about stuff because it makes me feel better knowing that i was there to listen but i dont know if he even wants or needs that. i dont know if any of this makes sense without details but ... yeah..
i still feel kinda shitty about breaking up a friendship but i really do feel that he is too codependent on me for support.. i feel like if he can get a hold of his life without help from me he will be so much better off. i really feel like i was hindering him by enabling him. so i feel good about getting that done. i dont nkow if he;ll ever understand but i hope everythign works out for him. i hope he can be happy by himself instead of being totally dependent on friends for happiness.. which i also think he is doing right now. but i cant worry about this forever.
in the meantime....uhh yeah.. well i guess i had more to say than i thought.
okay since i stink like a burnt chocolate bar im going to hop in the bath tub and watch a movie!
so the cicadas are here! i gave one to my cats this morning while they were outside.. they batted at it a lil bit and it held onto their fur.. and they shook it around and flipped out lol even cats dont like bugs!
yeah... i dont really have much to say that i can think of...
i did my ethics stuff today.. im working on finishing this history book..
im a lil perterbed that my friends dont call me when they say they are going too.. im taking this as a huge hint. i dont know if it is supposed to be that or not. but thats what it feels like so im going with that gut instinct. i think he just need time to do his own thing. im not even taking it as something personal..i dont understand it.. but i accept it. i wish i could be there and talk to him about stuff because it makes me feel better knowing that i was there to listen but i dont know if he even wants or needs that. i dont know if any of this makes sense without details but ... yeah..
i still feel kinda shitty about breaking up a friendship but i really do feel that he is too codependent on me for support.. i feel like if he can get a hold of his life without help from me he will be so much better off. i really feel like i was hindering him by enabling him. so i feel good about getting that done. i dont nkow if he;ll ever understand but i hope everythign works out for him. i hope he can be happy by himself instead of being totally dependent on friends for happiness.. which i also think he is doing right now. but i cant worry about this forever.
in the meantime....uhh yeah.. well i guess i had more to say than i thought.
okay since i stink like a burnt chocolate bar im going to hop in the bath tub and watch a movie!
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Don't worry - sounds like you're taking the right steps with that person - it can be real trouble when people get too dependant.
I should know - I've been on the 'too dependant' side in my past - learned real good from getting kicked out of that
good luck whicher pal. that dependency thing is a bitch, no matter which side you're on.