grayce

Busy day today.....
Should be studying for my Micro exam today but i'm not.. ive been diverting my attention to more important things...
watering the lawn
cleaning out the bird bath
spraying down the drive way
putting my hair in pigtails..
writing miscellaneous emails..

Honestly, i dont really give a poo about school right now. i'm very much over it.

New drama in my life - mom saw the new piercings last night. had a fit & asked why i always have to rebell and push the envlope...she thinks i did it to get back at her or something! it was my birthday present to myself. she called me today being all nice and was like "we need to talk" ....shes either going to stop my funding for school/apartment.. or demand that I take them out.
it dosent bother me that shes upset that i got pierced. it bothers me that she comes down so hard on me when i'm doing everything right. i'm the kid thats been working since 16, has always has awesome grades, never been arrested (not that my sister has), ive been truthful about my past bad habits, ive been honest about the things that i'm doing in my life.... who gives a shit if i want some holes in my ears? (she dosent know about the hood).
she's also upset because i told her i wanted to do the next burlesque tour. she thinks sg is degrading. i explained why i wanted to do it (and why i am) as best as i can but she only sees it from the mom perspective (which i totally understand). she feels like i'm resorting to internet porn for money or something. she has no concept that its something that I WANT to do.. because i think its beautiful and i'm damn proud of my body! its empowering...she dosent see that.
on top of all this wonderfullnss, i broke the news on the new job to her a few days ago....Im working counter at Acme Piercing Company. you would have thought that me getting a second job was the end of the freaking world! God forbid i do something that I LIKE.
the first thing she said when i told her i got the job was "and just who do you think is going to pay for liability insurance!?"...she has no concept.
i wish she would quit worrying about what i'm doing wrong and maybe focus on my little sister more. instead she gets away with bloody murder.
whatever i'm turning out smarter and better than the both of them put together yay for being independent, bullheaded, and strong.
at least i'm keeping my new years resolution (not let anyone's feelings/wishes hold me back from being happy and doing what i want)...

ok i better get back to studying. i have a feeling i'll be applying for grants, scholarships, federal aid, etc within the next few weeks so i need to keep my GPA nice and high..