soo yeah, i've come to realize that unless i'm drunk, i don't know how to be happy without her. three years (on and off once) with her. and i've realized that i don't know how to be happy. i think that this is a problem. but i don't want to get help. i hated it before. being medicated. i don't want to do it again, but i'm seriously afraid that i need to... or get back together with her... which i don't know that i sould do either. it was all so messy, so fucked up. i dunno... maybe it's just the holidays getting me down. they always do. every year my family kills xmas, and every year i'm without any plans for new years.
i'll make it through, i always do... just kinda worried that maybe i never came out ot the dpression from nine years ago. i just don't know. almost feels like i'm trying to dig too deep into my own mind sometimes.
i'll make it through, i always do... just kinda worried that maybe i never came out ot the dpression from nine years ago. i just don't know. almost feels like i'm trying to dig too deep into my own mind sometimes.
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you will get over her, may take another one, but you will, takes time my friend, and one day you wont believe you went out with her.
on lingering depression..
you will always feel as wierd and sad as you did at 13, just in varying degrees, and you can make a life for yourself trying to compensate for that feeling. i tried....its taking meds and alot of work to really shake it off but it still creeps up.
happy new year.
enjoy the alone sadness, you'll crave it when your not alone anymore...trust me