grapefruit

the sunrise this morning was beautiful and i count it for a blessing as i rarely get out the door in time to catch a glimpse of it. even though this mornings viewing was peripheral while traveling south.
its still a bit chilly and i had to scrape ice off my windshield before i left for work.
im losing weight, apparently. feels soothing that others had to bring the fact to my attention, but yay.
im busy at work, but one of the top salesmen in our office let me in on a secret yesterday: i will be a salesperson soon. hes convinced the bossman that im the person for the job as opposed to hiring someone from outside to fill the position. actually, its taking the position from someone whos already here, but shes been making serious mistakes on almost everything she touches and the guys figured a person more detail oriented and customer friendly would rectify the situation. im a bit uncomfortable and excited at the same time. i have a bit of cleaning up to do before i can train someone to do what im doing now. yay. therefore, the busy.
im drinking coffee this morning and i intend to have even another cup. hahaha. plus the usual grapefruit.
im creating a huge reading list to comprise this semesters personal studies. this should be interesting. after i get moved in and settled in the new apartment, i figure ill spend lots of time in thrift stores and at half-price books.
ive found that now the mister knows his title is in jeopardy, hes up my ass big time. how annoying is that? as i explained to a friend of mine, if he wanted to know my innermost thoughts and dreams, he couldve been concerned months ago when i was asking to get our relationship back on track. now that detriment is in order, he want to hang over my shoulder. well get off my fucking back!
okay. i feel better now. its just ridiculous.
and i hate to offend people who will read this, but he has this horrible employment record and im tired of carrying him. yes, i love him. but im finding the idea we hear mothers exclaim to be almost true: we can fall in love with anyone if we allow ourselves obviously, as in this situation, i feel in love with this dewd whos got no job, no car, barely any ethic, no motivation, etc etc etc. the down part is that hes a nice fellow and im a fucking push-over.
hahaha
but thats changing now, and im all too anxious. i can wish and wish for him to change, but the truth of the matter is that i cant really do anything about it, so. tah-dah!
but so much with me is changing, and all i can do is move forward. hurrah
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done for the day