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Greetings Boils and Ghouls!

Yup...I decided that that Horribly Dreary entry was just about Bitched...Time To Tie it up.

So...

I REALLY Must Thank ALL of The Wonderful Sentiments from EVERYONE of You Bastards...I Loathe You ALL! The Power of Word is Quite Strong...But It is The Sentiment Behind it that REALLY speaks...I am gonna do My Best to write Y'all back, or just be My Usual Unusual self...and Try to begin to posting Nasty Things in ALL Of Your MadPads...(It IS The Only REAL way To Show My Affection...)

NOW...




Yup...I would Say 'He' Works in Mysterious Ways...But If Anything has been trying to tell Me something ALL my Life...Its Certainly been followed by something like this from any Powers Up Above....No wonder I was accused of Burning The Church down in This Snow HELL after I got caught in it only a week before tryin to steal wine when I was like 13...

However...I didn't write about My recent Loss to ask for any Words of Wisdom...Although I got it in Droves from ALL you Friggin' Fiends...And Appreciated EVERY single Fuckin word... It's actually amazingly Interesting to not only see just How and What People do, react, or say in Situations such as this...Words Fall short sometimes...I know I wouldn't know How to approach this type of thing If I were in A position where I wanted to say something...I know that I would probably say something...But as many of you have said...There really aren't very many things you Can say...Death is Indeed, Death...Something I was once taught was responsible for Religions...Religion being Invented Out of need for A Coping Strategy to Death...We ALL believe in what we Believe In...I can Only surmise that regardless of where I thought My Mothers Soul would walk...I mean, I sent her Off in The Way I am Going to be to A certain Degree...The Little Bit of Egyptian Magick and A Prepared Papyrus, She Wore A Gold Pendant For as Far back as I can Remember, It was Nefertiti's Profile...(Those of You who know about Egyptology...should know who that is...) She Had One foot in That, and The other in something that really was never made clear to anyone...She Had A Pretty Rough Life herself...So All I know is that She lost faith in 'Him' at about the same time I did, as in, while SHE was a Young Catholic Schoolgal, She did not like the Penguins either. So I can Only Hope She went where she would have...and That, is just Fine By Me...

Needless to say, Of Course, Whereas I have already had My Plan of Mummification, and Traditional Egyptian Burial Rights and Ritual performed...Sarcophagi and all...But that is me. She will be Interred Into A section of A Mauseleum, where her Urn will sit behind Glass in those wonderful cozy rooms that ALWAYS have candles Burning, and If you are really Lucky...Don't ever get caught sleeping or smokin a doobie in (Hey, Graveyards ARE the best Place to be left alone , afterall...That is, By The Living anyway...) So, That was her wish...and she will have it.

Death Really, and this is also not a surprise, makes you think...I mean...I have put Many people I know into The ground because of OD's and The whatnot...But nothing, at least for me anyways, prepared me for this...I am actually surprisingly STILL dealing quite well with it (and if I did not have to sit and have 300+ people come up to me one after another, and another...ad infinitum, ALL sayng The Same Fuckin Thing...GAH! "I DON'T KNOW YOU!!! YOU DON'T KNOW ME!! Yes, Thank You...Next!")

I could Do without That...But, alas, It DOES come with The territory...and I suppose I should be A MUCH better person (Yeah, yeah...I keep My mouth in-check...C'mon! Of COURSE I am being as Polite as possible...) But it is Hard...Especially knowing that Most of these folks have ALL seen her more in the last decade than I have...I can admit, I am A tad 'sore' over that...) However, It shows just how many people REALLY & TRULY Liked her...ALOT. Shit, Carleton University Flew Thier Flags at Half Mast for her...And All she did was run The Business Office and Accounts Receivable...Yet, I had No Idea that she Was so Loved there...So, I suppose in a way, It is kind of Nice knowing that SO many people cared SO much for her...Paradoxical as it may seem...It did make me feel better knowing that.

So, I pose A question to any who wish to answer, I would be QUITE Interested...

What Plans Do YOU have For Your Funeral? What Do YOU want and Believe to happen to YOUR Skinbag? What and Where are you Gonna Go??

I ask this because, Theres A List here that say you are all 'My Fiends (Friends)' So Supposed Fiends...I am quite curious...I know you must all be thinking...

"WTF? I Don't think about THAT!"

Or...

"Hmmmmmm...This IS something to Ponder"

Lemme tell you...and anyone who has Buried A parent, or other close family member, It REALLY makes you think...It is SO Fuckin Surreal...Yet, Usually when People die young and quickly (It was A Year or so that she had been sick...but the Heart attacks due to the rapid Atrophy & damage on her Heart, she went pretty quickly...as in, I was talking to her 8 days ago...and a week ago right now?? She was on The Machine, being kept alive until I could get back here...(Alot of fuckin' Good THAT did...I tried to make it here as fast as I could...But she was long gone, this being kept from me while I made my way through airports and airplane Drinks...

I also ask this because I am am intregued about How Far you have been thinking of what you want, as opposed to The reality that your Death may not happen as planned...So THAT takes things into another whole Chainsaw of Another color...

I hope You do not find this A rather Morose inquiry...But as I said...and As Many of You know, I am A Complete Madwoman...and I am seriously Damned Curious as to what you...as a human who WILL die...have in store for your final Journey and Send-Off...

Well...That is About it for Now...I hope I get some Interesting responses from you fiends...I understand if its A privacy thing...But I think from what I know of those of you I know well...You are not THAT sesnitive about it...and it will really be Interesting to hear, and perhaps even more interesting for you to think about...

Once Again, Thanks Everyone...I am going to do Another round of Posts to you all...especially the Ones I haven't been able to have the time, or Grey Matter space to do yet...but I shall...

Until Then...

SS


BTW: At least now, You will ALL be happy to hear that I am finally Going to have An Uber-UBER computer...so I am not gonna get cut off, or have to deal with crap that makes you all ask me "When are you gonna get your REAL computer??"
Soon...
And, Oh SO Many more things, And to Anyone In TAA, I go into detail about Plans that I am going to do...and I am taking names of those who want to get in on the action... SS


UPDATE!!

We have Decided to SCREW the Internment into The Mauseleaum, and WE are going to Keep her...Wherever THAT may be...We are Still gonna try....Paying To keep Her On Holy Ground?? Well...At least My Dad and Sis seem to be comin' round...so it just goes to show....you NEVER know...