To My Dear Boils and Ghouls...
Once again, I am really glad that some of you took the time to see what I am about...This site has a melancholy feel to me because of an idea I had a Long, Long time ago, when I was just a somewhat jaded(haha) 15 year old Goth , in reality, of course, I was just a 15 year old whom thought I knew everythibg, as we tend to do in our early, and particularily rebellious, unhappy, cynical late 80's/ early 90's goth child...I used to have a plan...and I called it a 'plan' because I had EVERY intention of being the one to do it.
Computers were just black screens with alot of green writing and radiation...BBS's were the only thing ANYONE with an engineering degree was into...there was no Internet...hence, you were stuck with where you were...unless you did what I did and ran away to various other places and started a most stimulating and imperative road in this journey...we didnt have computers to chat with and see other things by digital means...But we DID, however, have travel...and thats what I did..
Now the only bummer about having so many new and exotic friends to get to know was...you eventually had to leave...and just hope that you would run into them again the next time you were in that city...So, the leader and lion in me had a dream...
I had this insane notion that if only I could get enough people and Money together...we could set up some type of 'Abby of Thelema' in an empty and suitable abandoned or empty Hotel/motel...and turn it into a piece of space on this decaying earth where like minded folks and all my friends could live.
OH....There was going to be a huge nightclub in the empty convention area..and Fantasy rooms for the sexually motivated,,,and enough rooms and space to allow all whom were there to live, to actually do just that, and keep this place enough of a secret so we would have control...but also enough people talking to encourage others to come and exist with the people they felt at most ease and completely happy with.
I could go on and on, about how I was going to open my own theatre there so I could screen Texas Chainsaw Massacre at Midnight along with some good ol Corman fliks...I thought.."If only...". which was a good way to look at it, because obviously the closest to my idea I got was squatting in places in that housed the same type of people I wanted at my 'dream Habitat for Freaks', except there wasnt any electricity, no water or heat...and a hell of alot of nasty white powder...My dream shattered like the cracked blackened glass of the remnants of smoking bulb glass shards everywhere...I think I graduated to another level of being Jaded at that point..Being Cynical and Rebellious were alreadypart of my make up, So, I eventually gave up on that dream...and just went along with the drugs and whatnot that all of us lost freaky kids thought would help, or at least distract, at best.
Well, I grew older and bolder, obviously, and I never was quite able to get that dream of a community for the weird and unwanted, but, nevertheless, I finally laughed and shrugged off such a 'silly' idea...NOBODY was going to help give us all a place to feel free to talk about whatever we wanted and to meet new and interesting others from around the world.
...And THATS when the Internet kicked in.
I do not have to go on, obviously, and to tell you the truth, I really dont know why I am even sharing this to any of you who are interested...but I will tell you what my point was...JUST in case you havent figured it out...I am glad there is this type of 'community', it is certainly the closest thing I can imagine to the real thing, although, times have changed and now Freakdom has become Fashion, and without careening off topic on my feelings on that, I guess I just want to admit that this is a good thing..and Kudos to everyone that has made this site what it is...a virtual place to go where you are now a jewel dressed in strange clothes, and display strange markings, denoting our tribe. and even if you yourself may not look like a freak, I have also learned a LONG time ago, that appearences can be decieving, and that is the only comment I have to say about that...take it as you may...
But, I honestly just wanted to acknowledge what a fine community all you kick ass folks are...even if I dont know for sure who will or won't get along with...I am aware that with ovwer 7000 people..I am bound to not get along with EVERYONE, thats just silly, I probably wont even get to know a fraction of that, but to the fraction that I have started with...You guys are suckin me in...and thats about as close to what I always wanted to be able to do all along...So Bottoms Up to being amongst the somewhat other side of society, and I can only hope that anyone who feels the same, WILL find what you are searching for here as well...OOoga BOoga
SexySadie 
Once again, I am really glad that some of you took the time to see what I am about...This site has a melancholy feel to me because of an idea I had a Long, Long time ago, when I was just a somewhat jaded(haha) 15 year old Goth , in reality, of course, I was just a 15 year old whom thought I knew everythibg, as we tend to do in our early, and particularily rebellious, unhappy, cynical late 80's/ early 90's goth child...I used to have a plan...and I called it a 'plan' because I had EVERY intention of being the one to do it.
Computers were just black screens with alot of green writing and radiation...BBS's were the only thing ANYONE with an engineering degree was into...there was no Internet...hence, you were stuck with where you were...unless you did what I did and ran away to various other places and started a most stimulating and imperative road in this journey...we didnt have computers to chat with and see other things by digital means...But we DID, however, have travel...and thats what I did..
Now the only bummer about having so many new and exotic friends to get to know was...you eventually had to leave...and just hope that you would run into them again the next time you were in that city...So, the leader and lion in me had a dream...
I had this insane notion that if only I could get enough people and Money together...we could set up some type of 'Abby of Thelema' in an empty and suitable abandoned or empty Hotel/motel...and turn it into a piece of space on this decaying earth where like minded folks and all my friends could live.
OH....There was going to be a huge nightclub in the empty convention area..and Fantasy rooms for the sexually motivated,,,and enough rooms and space to allow all whom were there to live, to actually do just that, and keep this place enough of a secret so we would have control...but also enough people talking to encourage others to come and exist with the people they felt at most ease and completely happy with.
I could go on and on, about how I was going to open my own theatre there so I could screen Texas Chainsaw Massacre at Midnight along with some good ol Corman fliks...I thought.."If only...". which was a good way to look at it, because obviously the closest to my idea I got was squatting in places in that housed the same type of people I wanted at my 'dream Habitat for Freaks', except there wasnt any electricity, no water or heat...and a hell of alot of nasty white powder...My dream shattered like the cracked blackened glass of the remnants of smoking bulb glass shards everywhere...I think I graduated to another level of being Jaded at that point..Being Cynical and Rebellious were alreadypart of my make up, So, I eventually gave up on that dream...and just went along with the drugs and whatnot that all of us lost freaky kids thought would help, or at least distract, at best.
Well, I grew older and bolder, obviously, and I never was quite able to get that dream of a community for the weird and unwanted, but, nevertheless, I finally laughed and shrugged off such a 'silly' idea...NOBODY was going to help give us all a place to feel free to talk about whatever we wanted and to meet new and interesting others from around the world.
...And THATS when the Internet kicked in.
I do not have to go on, obviously, and to tell you the truth, I really dont know why I am even sharing this to any of you who are interested...but I will tell you what my point was...JUST in case you havent figured it out...I am glad there is this type of 'community', it is certainly the closest thing I can imagine to the real thing, although, times have changed and now Freakdom has become Fashion, and without careening off topic on my feelings on that, I guess I just want to admit that this is a good thing..and Kudos to everyone that has made this site what it is...a virtual place to go where you are now a jewel dressed in strange clothes, and display strange markings, denoting our tribe. and even if you yourself may not look like a freak, I have also learned a LONG time ago, that appearences can be decieving, and that is the only comment I have to say about that...take it as you may...
But, I honestly just wanted to acknowledge what a fine community all you kick ass folks are...even if I dont know for sure who will or won't get along with...I am aware that with ovwer 7000 people..I am bound to not get along with EVERYONE, thats just silly, I probably wont even get to know a fraction of that, but to the fraction that I have started with...You guys are suckin me in...and thats about as close to what I always wanted to be able to do all along...So Bottoms Up to being amongst the somewhat other side of society, and I can only hope that anyone who feels the same, WILL find what you are searching for here as well...OOoga BOoga
SexySadie