Hell-O Boils and Ghouls!
Yup, another update from the ever disappearing me.
I have a few pics I wish to show first...
These two Fire-Bellied Newts are Smegal and Deagol.
They are the latest edition to the reptile count in this abode...This is where they live...(I think they look pretty happy in thier new stylin Vivarium, Don't they?)
And Yes, As you can see, SEVERIN is growing REAL fuckin fast! (I STILL love walkin around and showing folks pics of my new 'Dragon', He rocks! Notice how his Horns and Spikes are coming in round the head and neck, He is also becomming quite colourful, and we have been able to place him, with certainty, into the fine breed of 'Fire Flamed' Bearded Dragons...Which basically means, He is growing Flames from his designs, and FUCK! They ARE vibrant.
Oh...This is a pic I took for THE REDHEADED DEVILWOMENS group, as they are taking stock of all thier REAL redheads, and well, since I am waiting to get to the UK, next month, I am waiting for the very talented antenna to do alot of what I am going to use for the site, ergo, you will see them in TAA when ALL of em are done...But, I just may do ONE before I leave, However, I have less than a month, and I have ALOT more important things to plan on.
Okay, I REALLY wanted to mention this...
This is to a large group of folks that I realize my absence has ruined my relations with. I am not perfect. I did not really talk about much on my Mother's untimely Death, last year, But it did shit to me, Things I thought that leaving home at 15 would never effect me like this, Not to mention the fact that I was thrown between my sister and my Father to choose which one I wanted to keep, and which one I was to lose. I thought that my heart that was so godamned numb for so long, would just deal with it the same way that I have always dealt with shit...Withdraw, and not speak about it as much as possible.
I became embarrassed about things that kept revealing themselves to me, and they still are coming, For example, and I am really not too proud of shit like this, *takes deep breath* My father dropped the "You know...You have 4 Brothers that you or your sister or Mom never knew about..."
...and that is the mild shit. I won't even get into what he has done with cousins.
My point is, now that I not only feel like the crummy white trash I thought I used to be...I spiralled. I didn't start using Heroin again (FUCK! I like the last 6 clean years as opposed to the 7 Junk-Filled ones...), or, even worse? I stopped talking to ALOT of folks in here. I stopped accepting friends, and Now? I am sitting here, and looking at ALL these awesome folks who used to make my day, gone. Gone because I withdrew, and I suppose I would have done the same.
ANYHOW...I have had glory shined on me, and things are looking back to the way they should be, and better.
I want to apologize to all of you who feel like I have forgotten or let you down.
I am sorry.
However, I am back, and hopefully, now that I am staying, I can start to accept friendships again, and start to try and visit, talk, and slap around, kick in the ass, and use my Bonesaw on, Cause that is what REALLY makes me a hap, hap, happy Gorewhore, and I suppose I just shall see.
(And Yes, This admition, and the examples of new blissful family info that just rocks my socks, and all included, was included in this, which I never thought I would do, is just an example of what can hit you like a train, and throw that certainty of life beautiful out the fucking window, and No, it aint easy gettin over yer Mothers Death, I do not care How fuckin hardcore you think you are...
Nothing prepares you for Death.
I am really sorry fiends...I am just tryin to do my best here. All I can do is say Sorry, and hope for the best.
I suppose this is where I am going to see just who I can still call fiend.
Loathe to those who know it...
Your Gorewhore...
SS
(WOAH! lol! I appreciate the well-wishing, I really do! But I am doing MUCH better now, actually? I am kicking ASS! However, I just wanted to let a few of my fiends know why I have not been around...But I am just Dandy as Candy! Thanks for the sincerity tho...You all ROCK!)
Oh yeah, Here's a pic I took for 420...
They wanted pics of naked toking...well I had to do it, (and it was actually a 420 session!)
Yup, another update from the ever disappearing me.
I have a few pics I wish to show first...
These two Fire-Bellied Newts are Smegal and Deagol.
They are the latest edition to the reptile count in this abode...This is where they live...(I think they look pretty happy in thier new stylin Vivarium, Don't they?)
And Yes, As you can see, SEVERIN is growing REAL fuckin fast! (I STILL love walkin around and showing folks pics of my new 'Dragon', He rocks! Notice how his Horns and Spikes are coming in round the head and neck, He is also becomming quite colourful, and we have been able to place him, with certainty, into the fine breed of 'Fire Flamed' Bearded Dragons...Which basically means, He is growing Flames from his designs, and FUCK! They ARE vibrant.
Oh...This is a pic I took for THE REDHEADED DEVILWOMENS group, as they are taking stock of all thier REAL redheads, and well, since I am waiting to get to the UK, next month, I am waiting for the very talented antenna to do alot of what I am going to use for the site, ergo, you will see them in TAA when ALL of em are done...But, I just may do ONE before I leave, However, I have less than a month, and I have ALOT more important things to plan on.
Okay, I REALLY wanted to mention this...
This is to a large group of folks that I realize my absence has ruined my relations with. I am not perfect. I did not really talk about much on my Mother's untimely Death, last year, But it did shit to me, Things I thought that leaving home at 15 would never effect me like this, Not to mention the fact that I was thrown between my sister and my Father to choose which one I wanted to keep, and which one I was to lose. I thought that my heart that was so godamned numb for so long, would just deal with it the same way that I have always dealt with shit...Withdraw, and not speak about it as much as possible.
I became embarrassed about things that kept revealing themselves to me, and they still are coming, For example, and I am really not too proud of shit like this, *takes deep breath* My father dropped the "You know...You have 4 Brothers that you or your sister or Mom never knew about..."
...and that is the mild shit. I won't even get into what he has done with cousins.
My point is, now that I not only feel like the crummy white trash I thought I used to be...I spiralled. I didn't start using Heroin again (FUCK! I like the last 6 clean years as opposed to the 7 Junk-Filled ones...), or, even worse? I stopped talking to ALOT of folks in here. I stopped accepting friends, and Now? I am sitting here, and looking at ALL these awesome folks who used to make my day, gone. Gone because I withdrew, and I suppose I would have done the same.
ANYHOW...I have had glory shined on me, and things are looking back to the way they should be, and better.
I want to apologize to all of you who feel like I have forgotten or let you down.
I am sorry.
However, I am back, and hopefully, now that I am staying, I can start to accept friendships again, and start to try and visit, talk, and slap around, kick in the ass, and use my Bonesaw on, Cause that is what REALLY makes me a hap, hap, happy Gorewhore, and I suppose I just shall see.
(And Yes, This admition, and the examples of new blissful family info that just rocks my socks, and all included, was included in this, which I never thought I would do, is just an example of what can hit you like a train, and throw that certainty of life beautiful out the fucking window, and No, it aint easy gettin over yer Mothers Death, I do not care How fuckin hardcore you think you are...
Nothing prepares you for Death.
I am really sorry fiends...I am just tryin to do my best here. All I can do is say Sorry, and hope for the best.
I suppose this is where I am going to see just who I can still call fiend.
Loathe to those who know it...
Your Gorewhore...
SS
(WOAH! lol! I appreciate the well-wishing, I really do! But I am doing MUCH better now, actually? I am kicking ASS! However, I just wanted to let a few of my fiends know why I have not been around...But I am just Dandy as Candy! Thanks for the sincerity tho...You all ROCK!)
Oh yeah, Here's a pic I took for 420...
They wanted pics of naked toking...well I had to do it, (and it was actually a 420 session!)
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wildindigo:
Yea, a couple more weeks and I'll be gone... so much going on that I'm never on here anymore anyway. Take care of yourself....I might show up again some day down the road 
painted_lady:
Last week I got to hold a snake for the very first time! Remember we don't have snakes and other fun animals in Hawaii so I have to wait until I leave to have experiences like this. I was so enchanted by the darling little girl constrictor that I absolutely must find one of my very own just as soon as I get off this island! Your latest additions are adorable