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Easter with my family today!



It was tons of fun. This was probably the best Easter yet. I have such an awesome family. I feel so lucky to have these people in my life.

My aunt and uncle (Fierhauk's parents) came up from Maryland, plus their daughter and her family... and my aunt and uncle in Philly, and my parents and sisters and niece and also my youngest sis's new boyfriend... we all had breakfast at my grandmother's house. I got there at 10am, and didn't leave until 5pm. So much food! I don't need to eat for a week. We had kielbasa and ham and potato salad and macaroni salad and cole slaw and all kinds of cakes and wine and homemade chocolates. Granny makes awesome butter cream eggs.

I spend so much time and space here venting about my sexual misadventures and my boy troubles. I want you all to know, that is only a small part of my life.

People have been telling me often lately that I over analyze too much. Okay, maybe they are right... but is that such a bad thing? I like to review my thoughts, inspect my own mind, and figure out why I am the way I am. I like to investigate my actions and other people's actions. I feel like I am always learning about people and about me. If that is over analyzing, that's just how I am. And Teejay can just deal with that. Ha ha. (Teejay has been a really good listener this week, and he don't take no shit. But he doesn't understand my need to discuss everything to the extent I do.)

Concerning my recent string of encounters with various guys:

Joanna commented that I seem to have a lot of these crazy stories. These things don't happen to other people. Do they? I asked her, maybe they do happen to other people and I'm just the only one that talks about it. She said, "No, it's just you."

So I ask myself, why is this? Do I draw scandal like a flame draws moths? Or am I seeking it out? It must be both. Sure, sometimes I do go looking for excitement. The two boys in the backseat, for example. But I know I didn't initiate the married-couple hookup. Or did I? I was actively flirting with her, earlier in the evening. But that's just how I am. In any case, nothing happened with her. I barely touched her. (maybe later i might...)

How long has this been happening? Since my cruise? Well, maybe a little before. The recent string, anyway. I have plenty of stories from over the years. This is just a whole lot crammed into a few weeks.

And I think it has imbalanced my journal. (not to mention my life!) I said to Joanna, "I have other stories! I do exciting things that don't involve sex. I really do." My life is full of good stuff. I am feeling like, to people who hear my stories, it's been dominated by these wild tales of debauchery. Starting in my next journal, I am going to tell more of the other stuff.

I'm not just a slut. I'm ever so much more! ha ha ha