Today I am installing the walls for my new shower. But I am feeling pretty dark today. I don't know why. Maybe because it is snowing or that I keep thinking of HER but I am down. I need to do something that will make me happy. Why the hell do I fall for girls so hard? it sucks the marrow from my chest leaving me to force myself to breath. Something that I should do involuntarily I have to concsiously will myself to keep breathing. I was so happy for a time and the void that it has left weighs upon me. crap, I don't want to post this and get people down, but then again, no one really reads this anyway so I feel like it is almost a private journal.
Oh well, I can't sit on my ass all day and feel sorry for myself. I am going to go get the walls now. I hope everyone is doing better than I am, it can only look up. god I hate that cause when you say it the universe goes "ha! try this motherfucker." and bang fucks you up even more. shit. ok, gotta go for real now.
Oh well, I can't sit on my ass all day and feel sorry for myself. I am going to go get the walls now. I hope everyone is doing better than I am, it can only look up. god I hate that cause when you say it the universe goes "ha! try this motherfucker." and bang fucks you up even more. shit. ok, gotta go for real now.
I'm waiting for a pic in your profile. I love knowing how the people I cyber chat with look like.
I'm reading your journal. Don't I count? I'm so offended
Love does hurt but it is a tiny piece of your personal history that you will either cherish or wish it never happened. It's memorable, yeah that is the word.
It will get better. I'm not sure when but it will.