I'm supposed to have an active blog. This is active now.
I haven't really used this site in full since the age of myspace, so I'm gonna freeform stream of consciousness type as if no one here knows me, because that's basically true.
I don't have any body modifications and never plan to get any. I'm a rock musician and service industry alum, so I really stood out, and not in a good way. I look like I'm lost onstage - too "normal." My hair isn't even dyed. It came this way. So there's a little irony in that, but I've always had a nonspecific affinity for girls with weird hair and tattoos. Though all 5 people I've dated in life have not had any body mods either. I'm strange.
Also I'm apparently asexual. Interesting revelation to have at 33.
I grew up in Birmingham, Alabama, and I love it to death. All of my friends and family here, and my team, the UAB Blazers. I am obsessed on an unhealthy level with college football. Just college. The NFL is stupid. I'm really enjoying the CFL as of late though. I enjoy Canadian culture in general. I might try being Canadian some day.
I just moved back to Birmingham from Albuquerque, New Mexico. I was out there for about a year and a half because my wife got a residency position out there. Now we're separated. Thank God. New Mexico is neat. It's very pretty, but it is so brown. Everything is brown and dust and sand and rock. The color palette is oatmeal. So it gets stale. I enjoy trees and grass. And water. My family has a lakehouse, and I missed it like heroin when I lived in the desert. My life currently consists of drinking, fishing, running, kayaking, and swimming. It's hard to explain how amazing this is.
I'm "in school," kind of. I have a BFA in music, but it's useless. I'm pretty good at music though! I need a career though. I think. Honestly I enjoy restaurant work and wouldn't mind doing it forever, now that I don't have a spouse making me feel bad about it and complaining about me working nights and weekends. It allows me to play shows sometimes on short notice because you can get into and out of shifts 15 minutes before you start. All work should be like this.
I'm trying for a PTA program - physical therapist assistant. 2-year associate's degree. Probably what I should have done when I was 18, but 2 year degrees and community colleges were never presented as real options to me in high school because of my test scores. The guidance counselors push super expensive, uppity schools at me by default. Didn't even mention UAB, where I could have gone for super cheap. Fancy colleges are a complete waste of money. Go to a state school, and start at a community college. Save your money. Don't be me.
No regrets on the path I eventually meandered into, or how long it took me, but damn did I take forever to figure out all I really want to do is something simple like fix air conditioners. I switched my majors in this order: premed to music to psychology to music again. I also transferred from my broken, financially insolvent first college to UAB and finished my 4-year degree in only 6 and a half years. lol.
PTA school should be awesome. My sister does PT, and it's fascinating to hear her talk about her work. Though all I really want to do is help people recover from sports injuries in an outpatient setting. It will be interesting to see how I respond to the inpatient setting. I may find my true passion in life, making a difference guiding profoundly disabled people through learning to walk again or get mobile enough to live independently. My sister says it's a lot more rewarding work than helping pretty able-bodied people in the outpatient setting. But I am grossed out by vomit, poop, and smelly people with poor hygiene. Bleh.
I run a lot. Like, a lot. 80 miles a month. I do 5Ks and 10Ks. I wish I had gotten seriously about it in middle school or high school. I probably could have been really good at it. Like NCAA scholarship good. Now I'm just aiming to win some amateur races and not get fat.
I'm hoping to use my new life circumstance to focus on music again. I have a love / hate relationship with music. I'm really good at it, but I burned out on practicing and I'm afraid of failure. I can have a blast with it, but sometimes it really stresses me out. I never should have tried to make a career out of it. It's more fun for me when there's no pressure. I'll try to post my new videos here, if I ever get around to it.
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