a couple of friends have come and left my place. booz'mokin' as usual. and jason back to being upset about a girl....porbrecito. 
otherwise, it was good to see the shits.
gig last night: small audience, good players, acoustic music, and my nervousness, for some reason. i'm not really that nervous about performance, but last night just tweeked me a little. that solo original song set...
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otherwise, it was good to see the shits.
gig last night: small audience, good players, acoustic music, and my nervousness, for some reason. i'm not really that nervous about performance, but last night just tweeked me a little. that solo original song set...
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another decembered day. cs'ed and was ditched for jam and drink. was offered production work, but sux sue can't be right. i'll just have to tricksta jess into moving here. with all the lavish craz-tune nests and drug networking. morrow wake should startle the weekend.
listen to Nirvana's "Laundry Room" or "Sappy"...from No Alternative.
listen to Nirvana's "Laundry Room" or "Sappy"...from No Alternative.
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You're show's tomorrow, right? I'll be there if my prof. accepts my paper. If not, I'll be frantically writing 10 pages in less than 24 hours.
What time do you play? And how will I know it's you?
What time do you play? And how will I know it's you?
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Hey friend, you should leave me a comment so I can see your show! Let me know what time you'll be playing.
Willie Waldman would've been ausome to see tonight. 10 is steep for before-birthday-money-nathan though. have definitely heard of his badassness. someday.
practice peracktize pehrechteece. mus today, the morrow. sound rocks my sinew. told my sister to think about getting me a camera....i thought it was funny.
but it would be sweet tiachaas to have a visual store.
hmmmm....hope to sleep over 3 hours before taco-like...
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practice peracktize pehrechteece. mus today, the morrow. sound rocks my sinew. told my sister to think about getting me a camera....i thought it was funny.
but it would be sweet tiachaas to have a visual store.
hmmmm....hope to sleep over 3 hours before taco-like...
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Willie Waldman did kick ass. Fucking hardcore. And my friend Chris' band Reclining Budda opened and they were incredible, as usual. I danced my ass off. In fact, I knocked someone drink out of their hand I was so into it. It fell and shattered on the dance floor. Talk about fucking embarassing. But now I'm paying the price--I'm sicker than ever, with no chance of stopping and resting until Wednesday. Mother fucker.
Not to be an ass, by any means, but by the abject body I was speaking in terms of abject a la Le'a Kent's article about the abject body, in which the abject body is a body that is made invisible in today's society while lingering in the corner to scare us. Take, for example, fatness. Fatness is feared in society today. There are few, if any, fat figures represented in our media--the body is rendered invisible. Yet it's constantly present in it's absence. The picture of a beautiful, thin woman accompanying a diet article is a good example of this. Though the article is about dieting, a thin woman appears because of the way we marginalize and render these bodies invisible. We don't see them because we fear them. Yet this picture and idea of fatness is lingering unseen, compelling us to diet for fear that we may end up looking like this, which society deems untouchable. So I was confused, thinking in these terms, when you spoke of capitalist abjection.
But I totally hear you about the retirement thing. I get disgusted when I see the ways worship of capitalism has become our fucking sense of nationalism...I'll be cheesy and say that we live to work instead of working to live, that we can't view and value ourselves if we're not producers, and that as soon as we stop producing we're a strain to the rest of the world that we worked so hard to build. Fuck.
Not to be an ass, by any means, but by the abject body I was speaking in terms of abject a la Le'a Kent's article about the abject body, in which the abject body is a body that is made invisible in today's society while lingering in the corner to scare us. Take, for example, fatness. Fatness is feared in society today. There are few, if any, fat figures represented in our media--the body is rendered invisible. Yet it's constantly present in it's absence. The picture of a beautiful, thin woman accompanying a diet article is a good example of this. Though the article is about dieting, a thin woman appears because of the way we marginalize and render these bodies invisible. We don't see them because we fear them. Yet this picture and idea of fatness is lingering unseen, compelling us to diet for fear that we may end up looking like this, which society deems untouchable. So I was confused, thinking in these terms, when you spoke of capitalist abjection.
But I totally hear you about the retirement thing. I get disgusted when I see the ways worship of capitalism has become our fucking sense of nationalism...I'll be cheesy and say that we live to work instead of working to live, that we can't view and value ourselves if we're not producers, and that as soon as we stop producing we're a strain to the rest of the world that we worked so hard to build. Fuck.
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So do we know each other, possibly? I used to date Chris' roommate Erik, and Erik remains one of my best friends and an incredibly important person in my life. Have I seen you around their place or at a show?
Fucking crazy. Oh, and I think my load just got lighter. I had a break through and am now zooming through a paper that, with minor adjustment, I can turn in for another class as well. Fuck yeah.
Fucking crazy. Oh, and I think my load just got lighter. I had a break through and am now zooming through a paper that, with minor adjustment, I can turn in for another class as well. Fuck yeah.
helped with a movie today. tracked a classic trip this guy made to his grandparents' place in butt-fuck iowa. an elderly resident held us to her conversation for an hour. i hope people are as kind to my lonliness when i reach that age.
was novacained by the dentist at the free clinic today...dribble, dribble. now my teeth are the only part of my health...
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was novacained by the dentist at the free clinic today...dribble, dribble. now my teeth are the only part of my health...
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I don't know...aging is one of those things I want and I don't want. Being 20, I want to age so people take me seriously (and so I can get a drink). I want the wisdom that comes with time. I'm not afraid of getting older, going grey, getting wrinkles. I've made my peace with my body and whatever changes it might go through...until I start to lose my independence. I am definitely a product of this autonomous, capitalist culture...if my body doesn't produce, if I can't take care of myself, who am I? I fear this abject body that we all know is lingering down the road....
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I'm not clear on what you mean by capitalist abjection, or what example you're applying it to, but I'm definitely intrigued...
Awesome show at the green room tonight. Willie Waldman project...we're talking free form improvisational jazz. It rocks my ass. You should check it out if you've got $10 to spare for an evening that will change your perception of music.
Awesome show at the green room tonight. Willie Waldman project...we're talking free form improvisational jazz. It rocks my ass. You should check it out if you've got $10 to spare for an evening that will change your perception of music.
Where did today go? hmmm...it's yesterday already? grass, porn, and music? without that much music...yeah, just thinking about it... silly brain. well, this week will be productive--when compared to the last, anything would be...... except my complete unemployment stint last year...ugh. thank shit storms this year is about over.
5000.
5000.
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Monday as in a week from now instead of tonight? I think that could be arranged.
And luckily, in women's studies, there are no tests. Just take-home finals and lots and lots of papers. Which makes this next week all the more important.
Anywas, what's wrong with a day filled with grass, porn, and music? Sounds like heaven to me.
And luckily, in women's studies, there are no tests. Just take-home finals and lots and lots of papers. Which makes this next week all the more important.
Anywas, what's wrong with a day filled with grass, porn, and music? Sounds like heaven to me.
Saturday, oh, saturday. How goes it webbies? Not much here but turgid soul-like traveling. wants: a good conversation-not in passing; practice with other musicians to actually happen; another's sweat; gigs; a digi cam; new amp/guit; to not be pulled to lost self. People tap themselves well...'v'read some pure human conditions today. i'm glad suicide hasn't worked into me yet. Yeahz snowing moistens my earth's vagina....
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Spunky days home. here i am newly stuffed...relishing the pouring ice. Music is coming goopily onto my next months belly...just hope it will grow and survive. sweet smiles/fucks and biting tongues lets me know today's apartment is better than the past's. but i still crooningly swoon...knowing it's another head with impulsive thought. somewhere in Timelines it'll be different, "won't it?" he signed to Misted Ears...
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Sioux City is super shitty thanksgiving/winter breakage of the patience.
Anxious binge, rampantly lusting for miles of smell; and tell them nothing real, for guilt and obliged afterthoughts are weighted enough. Lungs heavily squeezing out the lies, only to realize atmospheric omnipotence.
"Bleeding horniness and quelled assurance"
names suitable only in dry minds......blown free of breath, comfort reaching constant evasion. None can see faith for...
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Anxious binge, rampantly lusting for miles of smell; and tell them nothing real, for guilt and obliged afterthoughts are weighted enough. Lungs heavily squeezing out the lies, only to realize atmospheric omnipotence.
"Bleeding horniness and quelled assurance"
names suitable only in dry minds......blown free of breath, comfort reaching constant evasion. None can see faith for...
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Aye...busy day. Finally got money, right before I have to leave town for the Sewer...damn Sioux City. Get some music down and drugs done. yay...
later.
later.
Dear Journal and new birthmothers who may open this window on their computers, thus awakening the history of this Very message....( oooeeeeeooooo 
)Today was dull and pissy. Which sucked considering I actually slept for a grip last night....somewhere near 11 hrs, wow. Paycheck, another fucking day lost in the mail, will not come until Thursday or some shit..........contingent positions are often demeaning and it's bullshit...and...
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oooeeeeeooooo )Today was dull and pissy. Which sucked considering I actually slept for a grip last night....somewhere near 11 hrs, wow. Paycheck, another fucking day lost in the mail, will not come until Thursday or some shit..........contingent positions are often demeaning and it's bullshit...and... Read More
Sorry I didn't make it to your show--I didn't get your comment until after 10, and before I had written ANY of my papers. We'll have to get together soon.