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Money sucks. You have it and then it goes away, leaving a socially mandated stigma on your pennilessness. Work to live, or live to work. No one fucking knows anymore.

Well, other than that bullshit...got most of my Stuff put away, so my place is now inhabitable...so I can go to Iowa City and stay at someone else's habitat. Silly world 'o Nathan. Aight.

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michellesg:
Pain is something I cannot seem to write without featuring it in some way. It is beyond universal, it does as you said make "the world go round, and to the side and upside down and through, under, above"

I like that you tied it into my piercings, yes i do find piercings to be "relieving" and very cathardic. Luckily though I can say that I do not search out pain in any other fashion in my life, like the character in my story.

You said: "Your story picks up the ambivalence that love lost both pains us and offers hope for its retention." I don't know if I'm misreading this, but when I wrote the character in my story she was not necessarily supposed to make someone feel bad for her, I wanted people to almost find her a little weak and pathetic, for not wanting to let go of her pain. For nursing it, by carrying with her all the time and writing the letter to her old girlfriend even though, what she should be doing is moving on. So she wanted the retention of pain, at least that is what I was going for.

you picked out a few of my favorite lines from the story as well, I'm really glad you enjoyed it. I will definately post some more writing on here very soon.

thank you for the wonderful comments, it really made my day!

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Ugh....it's too late for me to be waking up early. So, hmmm...in Sux City, with my stuff, in some apartment, apparently one I pay for...still going back to IC next week to work and hang and get gigs. Every crazy feeling is being sublimated to some perception of a plan right now. Job, car, school, music....some climbing or something. I want to not know what...
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michellesg:
are you in the iowa group? you should be, like i think we might hang out on friday or something.. i dont know, i just listen and try to show up to things if i can make it.

gigs? are you a musician or something? i can't play an instrument because i'm uncoordinated.
alt115:
Hey!

You moved already? We never had that drink!

Make sure you get a hold of me if you're back in town--I'd love to see you before you take off for good!
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Wow.
Time is fast lately.
michellesg:
are you going to the get together at the vine tonight?
alt115:
Good to run into you Wednesday, hope you were having a good time!
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More sun is smoothing the brain bubbles to normal gyri and chemicals. So much to do, but so much to wait for. It's better than yesterday {repeat}. It's nice to sweat, but it's sweeter to rub against sweat.

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michellesg:
heh, boys are silly indeed, every so often it's good to hear a boy describe why they are silly to me.

spend the last days of my life? I'm not sure I'd care where I was as long as I was with people who loved me. If i had the most important people around, I could die happy anywhere.
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Whaaaa...? I'm fucked... up. Not much happening...yet. Leavin' this town soon. Got a car and no job or place, but Something will happen, right? Want to party and not do any thinking....but somehow i don't think that will get me anywhere. Crazy brains. So, anyone know about an IC SG meeting coming up? Hopefully within the next month. Blah.

5000000000000000000000000000....er, i mean five thousand.
michellesg:
well my garden grows wicked fast and ridiculously blue, like the color blue. my garden grows blue. yea.
alt115:
So where are you heading to? Where did the inspiration come from? And fuck yeah I've been enjoying the weather...I feel like an entirely different person.

Drinks sometime?
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Up, up, up and down,
Turn, turn, turn around,
Round, round, roundabout,
And over again.
Son of a Gun, son of a gun,
you are the only one,
that makes any difference
to what I say.

Here is no why[, just do].

I am too horny for my own good.

Sioux City again neccesarily rears its dirty face, grinning its gold teeth (the real ones...
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alt115:
Thanks for the words. If you're looking for a good music scene, get out of Iowa and up to the pacific Northwest. Or just get out of Iowa.
asphyxiia:
yay for horny people..... biggrin biggrin kiss kiss kiss
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oh extended self...you talk too much for my meager human ears. how about i just live through the boundries of layers making it all stick and explode mushy on your walls.

enflamed moans haunt your night if flames live above you. dry-out deserts and desperate hands sigh, aghast by disinclusion. now, when blood drips through the ceiling, i choke on my own chain, and scream...
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asphyxiia:
hi... iowa city? im from the quad cities..... wink
alt115:
Hey stranger--

How have you been spending your time?
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Hump day. what a virtuous phrase. today life jumps. es muss sein! a slew of messages will expedite, not overwhelm.

just saw "I [heart] Huckabees". the blanket is primed in my mind. how about them weaves of experience? the non-conciousness, purely existential has to spurt out the salient notions in common modes of perception.

get out there.
michellesg:
I wanted to see that...

hmm... got a thing for big words I see... I usually dont mind, but I just took an exam and my mind hurts...

when I think of Ray-Bans I think of Tom Cruise in Risky Business... seriously...
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Stupid V D week, reminding us of how alone we really are. Work days and slighted nights. Been inside my apartment way too many nights in a row. Guess I got caught up with Daily show episodes.

Wasn't i going to play at the yacht club tonight? Oops. Someday i gotta get on this whole musician train thing.

So, supposedly i'll be helping some dude...
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alt115:
Stank like dirty. Yuck.

Thaks for reminding me about the G-Love. Almost forgot when I read your post.

Drinks tomorrow? I hope so.
michellesg:
thanks for your comment, it's nice to hear a thoughtful response... "others wear different shades of sunglasses, so don't blame them too much for their versions of light." ~ well said.. i'm not sure I can even respond to it, you hit it on the head...

you are my friend now, that is pretty cool, friends are good, as long as they don't wear Ray-Bans....
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slated for destruction and reapplication. other's vamps dwindle exuberance. shafted mirrors spit-dry your cloudy monsoons to scathe the infinite sadness lurking in. torn eyes reveal little more than open megaplexes, and she empties again. i hate wrapping paper.

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alt115:
Hey, G-love is playing next Sunday at the IMU!