so lets sum this down a bit:
the men in my life....
graham : boyfriend of almost three years, going through rough soul searching garbage right now.
Davie: the boy from far away who i would love to meet. says he loves me, I 'love' him too. but distance and complicated circumstances/money keep us from meeting..
J: seems to like me a little too much. really awesome guy but it was a one night thing....
Ben: we had sex, twice in the same encounter. rocked my world, then decided it was best to ignore me. gots me feeling all rejected and sad because now i've lost a friend over one night of amazing sex (Even though i didn't get off once...)
men confuse me and leave me feeling weak.
i just want to get laid by a hot boy who would be willing to hang out and still be friends afterwards..like fuck man.
on another note.
I"m going to montreal this coming weekend and it already seems to be turning into an incredibly sexy trip.
i'm hooking up with ben and sarah again saturday afternoon, and ben has informed me that they want to play, but have me more involved. he filled my head with sexy fantasies of the three of us exhanging loads of bodily fluids and love. got me all excited just reading about it, who knows what will happen when it comes down to it!
spending the rest of the time in montreal with veronique. who knows how long i'll be able to keep my dirty little hands off of this hot lady. the first girl who made me feel more than friendship for her...disapeared out of my life for two years and now we will meet again in a sexy adventure that only time knows the ending too1!!
but with all this sexiness coming up, i just cant help but feel so shitty.
i blame ben. i want to make things better with him soon...i want to hang out again as friends. if I Never fuck him again thats cool (a shame but cool) i just want a friend back. oh well, guess this is what happens when you get 'involved' with boys who have more issues than you do heh.
the men in my life....
graham : boyfriend of almost three years, going through rough soul searching garbage right now.
Davie: the boy from far away who i would love to meet. says he loves me, I 'love' him too. but distance and complicated circumstances/money keep us from meeting..
J: seems to like me a little too much. really awesome guy but it was a one night thing....
Ben: we had sex, twice in the same encounter. rocked my world, then decided it was best to ignore me. gots me feeling all rejected and sad because now i've lost a friend over one night of amazing sex (Even though i didn't get off once...)
men confuse me and leave me feeling weak.
i just want to get laid by a hot boy who would be willing to hang out and still be friends afterwards..like fuck man.
on another note.
I"m going to montreal this coming weekend and it already seems to be turning into an incredibly sexy trip.
i'm hooking up with ben and sarah again saturday afternoon, and ben has informed me that they want to play, but have me more involved. he filled my head with sexy fantasies of the three of us exhanging loads of bodily fluids and love. got me all excited just reading about it, who knows what will happen when it comes down to it!
spending the rest of the time in montreal with veronique. who knows how long i'll be able to keep my dirty little hands off of this hot lady. the first girl who made me feel more than friendship for her...disapeared out of my life for two years and now we will meet again in a sexy adventure that only time knows the ending too1!!
but with all this sexiness coming up, i just cant help but feel so shitty.
i blame ben. i want to make things better with him soon...i want to hang out again as friends. if I Never fuck him again thats cool (a shame but cool) i just want a friend back. oh well, guess this is what happens when you get 'involved' with boys who have more issues than you do heh.
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