With one contact in my eye
my left eye
i can't see
but does it matter
my leg shakes
my right leg
I see the fat on my thigh pulsating
unfortunately in rythym underneath my jeans
I am at a point of desperation
desolation
I sincreely believe I am
ugly
awful
terrible
and no one can change my belief because i know
it's true
why...
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my left eye
i can't see
but does it matter
my leg shakes
my right leg
I see the fat on my thigh pulsating
unfortunately in rythym underneath my jeans
I am at a point of desperation
desolation
I sincreely believe I am
ugly
awful
terrible
and no one can change my belief because i know
it's true
why...
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waxen sky
a puddle of sapphire juice
waiting inhilation by
a cylindrical moon
flat from earths view
in its luminescent ivory glow
and the air a buoyant milkshake
tickling the back of my pink throat
peculiar is the sky tonight
the first taste of spring
a prognostic of the coming warmth
and the afterglow
droplets
of falling rain.
a puddle of sapphire juice
waiting inhilation by
a cylindrical moon
flat from earths view
in its luminescent ivory glow
and the air a buoyant milkshake
tickling the back of my pink throat
peculiar is the sky tonight
the first taste of spring
a prognostic of the coming warmth
and the afterglow
droplets
of falling rain.
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thurmis:
i love spring
jenya:
hello from another chicagoan.............
i just looked at your pics in your profile, after reading your post in the piercings group.
my, but you are pretty!!!! such an exotic look you have.
i just looked at your pics in your profile, after reading your post in the piercings group.
my, but you are pretty!!!! such an exotic look you have.
spring is in the air.
the rabbits are goin' at it.
isn't life wonderful?
the rabbits are goin' at it.
isn't life wonderful?
thurmis:
i love this weather, and i will love it even more on wednesday...oh yeah.
clinton62816:
Yea,... wonderful, ... kinda jealous of the rabbits though *coughs*
it's bad to look at anything somewhat pornographic in a relatively public place after drinking a little bit of beer.
[this is my wise thought of the day.]
What's your favorite smell?
[this is my wise thought of the day.]
What's your favorite smell?
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zeroburritos:
my favorite smell is kind of detailed...
the smell of the barn on the spring days in april, around 7am in the morning. it is normally when the horses are getting their feed and stalls have just been cleaned so it smells like spring but the warm smell of sweet feed and fresh straw as well. it's just so pleasent.
the smell of the barn on the spring days in april, around 7am in the morning. it is normally when the horses are getting their feed and stalls have just been cleaned so it smells like spring but the warm smell of sweet feed and fresh straw as well. it's just so pleasent.
losing_faith:
my fav smell is bilberry
It's 5:35pm. I'm going to go home, eat something and then head out to see a show tonight. I'd rather go to sleep, but I've got to see this for class and all the other nights are supposedly sold out. Eh.
I had yet another freak-out today when I was sitting in playwriting and realized in about a year and a few months I'm no...
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mikedawg13:
Well i hope i get into the SGchicago group....*cough cough* and i just realized your one of the first Chicago members i've seen...Just wondering, are you going to the Yeah Yeah Yeahs concert on Tuesday?
recursive:
Don't stress about it. There are actually a surprising number of jobs for anti-social misanthropes. For instance, I became a Sys Admin. Or you could go work at the DMV, where you do have to deal with people regularly, but are allowed, probably incouraged, to be misanthropic about it.
the VAGINA monologues.
Feb 22nd, 7pm and 10pm
@DePaul University's student center.
$10 or pay what you can at the door-
all proceeds go to two battered woman and children's shelters in the chicago area.
How to get to the student center:
Take the red, purple or brown line train to FULLERTON. turn left when getting off the train- walk to Shefield. Turn left (south)...
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Feb 22nd, 7pm and 10pm
@DePaul University's student center.
$10 or pay what you can at the door-
all proceeds go to two battered woman and children's shelters in the chicago area.
How to get to the student center:
Take the red, purple or brown line train to FULLERTON. turn left when getting off the train- walk to Shefield. Turn left (south)...
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ecogeek:
so how was the show? wish i could have made it, but i had other things going on this weekend. hopefully something else will happen soon.
ilovemikehunt:
FUCK, i missed it
so-
i'm thinking about getting a minor in psychology.
uhmm... it's 9:49.
I have been in the computer lab since-- 5? Wait. I thought I was going to be home by 6. I guess I changed my plans without even knowing. Urr.
Maybe I should go do my homework... now?
i'm thinking about getting a minor in psychology.
uhmm... it's 9:49.
I have been in the computer lab since-- 5? Wait. I thought I was going to be home by 6. I guess I changed my plans without even knowing. Urr.
Maybe I should go do my homework... now?
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punknitemike:
i dont think ive told ya, but yr profile pic is super duper hawt!!!
clinton62816:
Maybe, ...
Psychology is cool, nothing wrong with it.
Psychology is cool, nothing wrong with it.
It's almost 6.
The plan was, skip my 3-5 class
and do homework.
but it's almost 6!
I'm really tired...
feeling oddly
empty
not sad though
more like
dead, death
encompassing
the stillness
the silence
I won't let anything hurt me
anymore.
I put up my shield
nothing can get through
I can't cry anymore
won't scream into the night
in my minds eye I'm...
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The plan was, skip my 3-5 class
and do homework.
but it's almost 6!
I'm really tired...
feeling oddly
empty
not sad though
more like
dead, death
encompassing
the stillness
the silence
I won't let anything hurt me
anymore.
I put up my shield
nothing can get through
I can't cry anymore
won't scream into the night
in my minds eye I'm...
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demonbuttercup:
Embrace the passion of confusion - it breeds creativity.
Check out my alma mater (well, it's not a 7 Sister's school, but a wanna be one): www.mills.edu
Check out my alma mater (well, it's not a 7 Sister's school, but a wanna be one): www.mills.edu
t42unme:
I said cookies. I am on my way to Schubas. Wanna go?
If any of you picked up the red streak on thursday, you can find me behind a whole lotta dildos.
...
So- I think I've royally fucked up my life. This is not a new observation, I must say- it's just- I keep doing this to myself... over and over again. So I want to go to grad school for directing one day. Why? Because...
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So- I think I've royally fucked up my life. This is not a new observation, I must say- it's just- I keep doing this to myself... over and over again. So I want to go to grad school for directing one day. Why? Because...
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jeffreylebowski:
i loved the 'love' thread. just thought i'd meander over to your journal and say hi. so, hi!
kennyg:
Did I ever ask if you watch Cheaters? It's kind of a dating show, it's terrible, and I can't pull my eyes off it when it's on!
After vag. monologue rehearsal yesterday, a group of us girlies went to Early to Bed, a women owned sex store in Chicago n'd I made a couple-a purchases (yeay). While we were there, a photographer from the sun times came in and started taking pics... so, any of you in the chi area, look in thursdays "red streak"-- I just *might* be in there, behind...
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runelateralus:
And such a fun thing to have your 15 minutes of fame of! That is great! 
ilovemikehunt:
shit, i had toys at my parents house.
it's really cold outside.
i mean. really. unbelieveably cold.
i do not want to go home,
because there is outside between here and home.
therefore,
home is no longer reachable until may.
well, i've always wanted to move into the library...
i mean. really. unbelieveably cold.
i do not want to go home,
because there is outside between here and home.
therefore,
home is no longer reachable until may.
well, i've always wanted to move into the library...
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punknitemike:
cold isnt the word!
more like freezing!!!
here in ohio @ about 8:30am,
its -7... and thats the regular
temperature! damn, its cold!
more like freezing!!!
here in ohio @ about 8:30am,
its -7... and thats the regular
temperature! damn, its cold!
johnnydelicious:
Yes, I did Stage and Film at Vassar. (They don't do film anymore but kept the name.) I was an electrics intern two summers ago, and am considering applying for a staff position this summer. To be an intern (which means primarily either working as a technician or office staff costs nothing except your personal costs for food, and cable or air conditioning if you are dependant upon such things. Room is provided, just no food (excepting some parties). There is also an apprentice program which is directed more towards actors and playwrights, although the apprentices assist the interns with loadins, strikes, etc. and I believe can elect to spend more time in the tech discipline of their choice. Not positive on that. The colleges internet connection (T1 I believe) is free, and just needs the appropriate cable. There is both pool and gym access, and roughly a 10 minute walk to two delis, some bars, some restaurants. I don't recall needing any specialized software. I found it to be lots of hard work, but a very positive experience. I work in New York now (in lighting), and it was a good final more practical learning opportunity before moving here. There is generally at the very least a personal Q and A with the designers, and some directors, playwrights and actors. Here is a link I found regarding the apprentice program. This program I believe costs money, I don't know how much, but here it is, and you could probably email someone on it to find out about the intern program if that is what you are more interested in.
Right Heah.
Right Heah.
I'm convinced I'm finally growing up, or something. Sure, I still have my old somewhat obsessive ways, but it all seems overly ridiculous to me now. I don't think my therapist has worked with anyone like me before and she's a bit unsure of what to advise. On one hand, the majority of my thoughts are quite irrational. On the other, then actually make quite...
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lastbadger:
Just stopped by to say YOUR HOT !!
Reading your entry I have to say Fuck having a life. Fantasy is somuch better than reality. Especially if your gifted with enough imagination to construct them
Reading your entry I have to say Fuck having a life. Fantasy is somuch better than reality. Especially if your gifted with enough imagination to construct them
bukkakegod:
masturbation gets boring after a while. specially when you do it too often. besides its my night off, and i wanna go do something that i normally dont do during the week when i work. and masturbation is not one of those things.