girlordinary

I love being single, for the most part.
I get to sleep in... and roll around in bed... I don't have to fight for blankets... I don't wake up shivering because someone else wrapped themselves up in the comforter... I don't have to worry about all the OJ running out... or hot water when I want a long shower...

But do I ever miss the kisses.... I miss being able to roll over and press my lips against someone else.. be it their lips... their bare shoulder... their chest...
I miss touch... the feel of someone elses skin... being able to just reach out and grab at flesh and pull someone close to me...

I'm intoxicated and when I'm intoxicated I miss it the most...
Should I say it, or him?
Would it be more appropriate to say I miss him? Not that he would let me touch him.... he'd say that he was trying to sleep.... and it's not like in the entire time we were together I ever got those meaningful kisses....
Fuck.. I don't even need meaningful kisses... I just want to give this to someone.... I just want to touch someone else and give them this feeling... I want to have hands pressed against me... giving it back.

I would lay in bed at night, with my body practically SCREAMING to be touched, and he'd be curled up on his side of the bed, with his breathing shallow... and eventually I'd get that he wasn't going to roll over and lavish me the way I wanted.

And while I'm thinking about it - if I don't remember the fuck, it was obviously not very fantastic.... mental note.