gingerflower

I have the feeling like I'm coming full circle, and it's a good thing.

Many things have been and are constantly changing. I am choosing to flow with them, attempting to re-sync with the universe, instead of fighting situations and ideas.
I've been constantly processing everything at the incorrect level for some time now.
Trying to think everything out to it's eventual conclusion, getting hung up on what ifs and oh shits.
Permitting valuable time to thoughts of worst case scenarios.

'Why have I done this? How could I have been so stupid?!'
As the boy often says, there's your problem right there!

My powerful quiet strength has been sitting neglected.
Now I am making an effort to invest in it.
Just be in the moment, hold one's self in the now.
Cease unnecessary projection.



A poem from today,
(and I've written a fair few! :p)

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Why not?

why not indeed?!
why not only choose love?
no need to base any decisions on anything else
we can love the stillness
love the bliss
exist inside it
allow your self the luxury!

suffering is a choice
suffering proves nothing
it serves as an example of how small fear makes us

your happiness is your responsibility
my happiness is mine
your children's?
their own
your lover?
his alone

don't try to create it
just know it

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I'm going back to some of my old ways.
Reintroduce some practices that increase well being, help keep me at peace and generally cheer me the fuck up! :p
Meditation, yoga, study (of anything), reading, all sorts of stuff. I would like very much to learn Spanish properly.

All in all here is going to be, and already is, a good place to be.