DEEP
I am melting in a deep haze.......parts of me scattered all over the landscape of you.....I melt into what is left of you.......so deep.....so into...fucking you......wanting you...I melt...all over again....I cant help it...I am numb beyond belief...........does the closeness make it ok?.....being how we are hampered by the heavens ...by the gods.......by the slight off kilter of the weird fucking universe .whose sense of cruel humor no longer make this shit funny anymore........I want traverse it all at once....meet me half way.........as I come down.down.slow.deepslower.deepertill the warmth sets in and the moment is never goneI cant help but melt againscattered again..all over the pieces that are left of you and me.till I am sober againthe lack of drunkenness gone from the last traces of my breathlisten I sayI can hear your heart beat and it makes me sad..the stillness of yourimagea memory..the something of something that was never really anythingI laugh, I think I have too much time on my handsit is still early..time enough to take all those things back but I did mean them all..man, I still think I meant it all.put them away where I know they will safe for another dayand I think about you..I have such fucking warmth and an obsessive caring for your lovely self, but alas I am just selfish and I have come to realize that I should let it go..make it easier..cause I want you to be happy.and in the middle of this day and the middle of these thoughtsI feel safe and ok by that we will always havenothing and everything between us.meet me half way I saylets melt together..