last night was interesting.
couldn't make it to la, because the world has it out for me currently.
had a night... full of wallowing.
which i don't mind so much. wallowing can be kinda fun. sorta.
i had some good conversation, with real people who really care about me. it's nice to know that i have some really amazing friends. some analyzing of selves. a...
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couldn't make it to la, because the world has it out for me currently.
had a night... full of wallowing.
which i don't mind so much. wallowing can be kinda fun. sorta.
i had some good conversation, with real people who really care about me. it's nice to know that i have some really amazing friends. some analyzing of selves. a...
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santivo:
Its because you're a fish!! I have a tendancy to fall into the same traps. To some twisted degree I enjoy my solitude and my reality. Keep in mind that you are the Sun of your own universe. You plot out the planets and set thier rotation. Keep your chin up....
takeshi21:
Happy New Year!
at 11:07
i thought this would just get easier.
but it doesn't appear to be getting easier.
i don't have anyone to turn to.
they all love him more.
they never loved me.
they just loved me as an extenstion of him.
and he never loved me either.
as it seems.
i can't take this much more.
at 1:11
i excercised in the bathroom. yes,...
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i thought this would just get easier.
but it doesn't appear to be getting easier.
i don't have anyone to turn to.
they all love him more.
they never loved me.
they just loved me as an extenstion of him.
and he never loved me either.
as it seems.
i can't take this much more.
at 1:11
i excercised in the bathroom. yes,...
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babybeezer:
you, me, erika, hehehehe....
thesixx:
It will be all good...time heals everything. It's going to be hard before it gets better though. And you may have gotten through the worst. Hard to say though.
-Atrocity
-Atrocity
guess who is back on the meat market again?
take a number and get in line.
(by that i really mean... i'm sad)
take a number and get in line.
(by that i really mean... i'm sad)
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thesixx:
Ouch. Sorry to hear that hun. 
acidevangelist:
Yeah, but look how long the line is!
she doesn't get enough cocaine.
she doesn't get enough heartache.
she's doesn't get enough girls.
she's doesn't get enough.
she's doesn't get enough money.
she doesn't get enough sluts.
she doesn't get enough hoes.
she died from an overdose.
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we can stay together in my mind.
(but that's not good enough)
she doesn't get enough heartache.
she's doesn't get enough girls.
she's doesn't get enough.
she's doesn't get enough money.
she doesn't get enough sluts.
she doesn't get enough hoes.
she died from an overdose.
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we can stay together in my mind.
(but that's not good enough)
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trilobyte:
I don't know if hug is the word I was hoping for, but it sounds good when you say it. And you said badass, so that makes it even more special.
Word to the wise, don't combine all three of your vices simultaneously. Because after a few rounds, you'll be drinking burrito shots, and putting hot sauce in the Jim Beam. And that CAN'T be good.
odi omnes
Word to the wise, don't combine all three of your vices simultaneously. Because after a few rounds, you'll be drinking burrito shots, and putting hot sauce in the Jim Beam. And that CAN'T be good.
odi omnes
trilobyte:
Man I wish I could work the bar on Saturday night ... lol
odi omnes
odi omnes
it's midnight. everyone else in my house is asleep. this is when thoughts come in and slowly kill me.
i think about how my relationship isn't going great, how i am feeling unattractive, how i don't really have any close friends, howi can only have fun when i am drinking, how i am going to be a total failure in life, how i haven't paid...
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i think about how my relationship isn't going great, how i am feeling unattractive, how i don't really have any close friends, howi can only have fun when i am drinking, how i am going to be a total failure in life, how i haven't paid...
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joscelyne:
I know this doesn't make anything better, but I thought I could sympathize because I can't go out with the usual crowd of friends and be social unless I have a drink. It's already a problem in itself because it's caused me to not go out as much.
It's hard but I just keep reminding myself that it will get better. Somehow.
It's hard but I just keep reminding myself that it will get better. Somehow.
muller:
If I may,
You are more than just attractive. To be honest, I had a crush on you from the first time we met at Tuffy's for the x-mas party.
As for the fun part, maybe the people you've been hanging out with don't have a creative side that wants to create something, even if it's memories. I'm a huge fan of alcohol, but there are so many more fun things to do to tickle your head.
You might try going to meet people at places that really interest you. The museum of modern art in Santa Barbara has always been a place that I like to visit when in town. Or a venue where music you like is playing. Anything to find people of similar interest.
Even though i'm not an artist, I used to paint a painting without any plan, and then sit back and ponder over it for an hour or so wondering where those ideas came from and tracing them back to pieces of my personality. May seem a little weird, but it was very educational for me.
Crying your eyes out is actually fairly cathartic. Embrace the feelings you feel. I think those are the most honest times in a persons life.
sorry if I bummed you out at all with this rant.
You are more than just attractive. To be honest, I had a crush on you from the first time we met at Tuffy's for the x-mas party.
As for the fun part, maybe the people you've been hanging out with don't have a creative side that wants to create something, even if it's memories. I'm a huge fan of alcohol, but there are so many more fun things to do to tickle your head.
You might try going to meet people at places that really interest you. The museum of modern art in Santa Barbara has always been a place that I like to visit when in town. Or a venue where music you like is playing. Anything to find people of similar interest.
Even though i'm not an artist, I used to paint a painting without any plan, and then sit back and ponder over it for an hour or so wondering where those ideas came from and tracing them back to pieces of my personality. May seem a little weird, but it was very educational for me.
Crying your eyes out is actually fairly cathartic. Embrace the feelings you feel. I think those are the most honest times in a persons life.
sorry if I bummed you out at all with this rant.
From a list of plots and themes of stories submitted "too frequently" to Strange Horizons (http://www.strangehorizons.com/), and online magazine of "speculative fiction." The document was compiled in order to provide guidance to potential contributors.
1. Person is (metaphorically) at point A, wants to be at point B. Looks at point B. Looks at point B, says, "I want to be at point B." Goes to...
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1. Person is (metaphorically) at point A, wants to be at point B. Looks at point B. Looks at point B, says, "I want to be at point B." Goes to...
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likeclockwork:
thats hilarious. i guess i'll have to rework my manuscript about the guy that calls tech support.
some of those themes are rediculous. do you work for that publisher?
some of those themes are rediculous. do you work for that publisher?i am always second guessing myself.
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thesixx:
In what way...?
saruman:
I'm kind of wondering what was the purpose of that bit of perl...
i voted.
not that... it..... mattered. but i am a nice little part of a very large number. and that makes me feel special.
while i am a little terrified about how this election will turn out, i am not too scared. there is time for a change. i am talking about a huge change of goals, of truths of the direction we as a...
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not that... it..... mattered. but i am a nice little part of a very large number. and that makes me feel special.
while i am a little terrified about how this election will turn out, i am not too scared. there is time for a change. i am talking about a huge change of goals, of truths of the direction we as a...
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letigre:
you should apologize for nothing.
oooo! i am excited to vote!
krys_____:
Right on, sister!
it's time to move on.
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krys_____:
What?
oipthestampede:
move on what? attack canada?
my computer died.
i downloaded that service pack windows update.
fucker killed my baby.
now all it does is keep restarting itself.
it's so sad.
it can't start in safe mode or anything.
and i can't afford to fix it till this damn check clears. GAH!
this week has already started to be the stupidest, worst, bad-week ever..
i hope it can only get better.
i downloaded that service pack windows update.
fucker killed my baby.
now all it does is keep restarting itself.
it's so sad.
it can't start in safe mode or anything.
and i can't afford to fix it till this damn check clears. GAH!
this week has already started to be the stupidest, worst, bad-week ever..
i hope it can only get better.
krys_____:
don't you hate it when new technology ruins old technology. I don't know what to tell you, my computer lingo isn't up to the point where I could tell you how to fix this.
I hope your week gets better soon.
I hope your week gets better soon.
letigre:
i hate computers, especially mine.
doesn't sit still. doesn't look well.
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budrollit:
is it a boy after o.d. ing on vagina
