ghoulish

i'm a wreck right now. i don't really want to talk to anyone because i don't feel comfortable crying around people. so i'll just talk to my journal.

my friend jordan who i went to high school with and have been good friends with for the last 4 years got in a carwreck a few weeks ago and was paralyzed from the waist down. and it wasn't his fault. he was turning his life around, stopped doing drugs and moved to florida to be with his girlfriend.

his girlfriend called me today and told me jordan flatlined last night and he has pneumonia and is in critical condition. jordan doesn't fucking deserve this, he's a great kid. i was told to pray for him, and i will, even if i have nothing to believe in anymore. so what i'm saying is if you can send your prayers and love to someone you don't know, a brother to me, in hopes that he does recover. i couldn't imagine losing jordan, he's one of a kind. SHE told me to pray for him, someone who doesn't believe in anything herself, calls me crying. it just brought me to my knees .. so i'm spreading the word that maybe prayer can do something ... because this is a last hope.

i'll try to set up an email or something for people to send wishes to or something ...

i don't cry. and i am right now. i just want him to be okay ... take care guys ...