*sigh* (i think i tend to use that too often...huh)
so i'm about to change my profile pic again...it's my geek girl pic...i'll probably scare you all off with my dorky smile! hehe
this pseudo-friend kelly called me up today...she really annoys me, but i was so incredibly happy that someone called and wanted to talk to me!!
so i talked her ear off for an hour..since i haven't really had anyone to ramble to this week...*pitiful sigh*
by the way...on my drunken fiasco night i made out with her.. i must say that it was like kissing my sister! eww
no sparks or tingles whatsoever...i was quite drunk..i don't even think she's attractive...buuut anyway.
it was nice of her to call and let me chat away for awhile.
here's an amusing story for you all..my little sister, who i adore(she's 19)..just went away to college and she calls me almost every night and talks for hours...sometimes it gets kind of annoying..but i'm glad we are so close now..
but really i feel like i lead a totally secret life from her..haha i do really!
she's fairly religious, somewhat racist, and from what i've always thought...a total homophobe! but other than that ..she's cool. every time she comes to atlanta to visit me, i try to show her new things and different people..try and open her mind a bit..it seems to be working!
SO anyway last night she confesses to me that her friend brandy is bisexual..i just kinda giggled and said that was cool...
and she immediately goes "but of course i'm not like that!! i think lesbians are scary!" i keep my mouth shut..well i ask her why she feels that way...she says she just feels like they might be attracted to her. i laughed and said SO WWHAT! be flattered...they think you are cute..they aren't gonna rape you or anything! haha anyway...(this whole time i'm desperately wishing i could tell her the truth about myself and all the experiences i've had)..so then she tells me that the boys were egging her and brandy on about liking each other...she said she just laughed..but then brandy reaches over and feels her up!!! and so she did it back to her!
of course she said it didn't mean or do anything to her..
but i'm secretly laughing so hard...and cheering her on! if only she knew...*sigh*
one day i'll tell her, when i feel she's ready. today isn't the day to be disowned from my family.
anyway i think that's enough journal for now.
i miss you colette.
so i'm about to change my profile pic again...it's my geek girl pic...i'll probably scare you all off with my dorky smile! hehe
this pseudo-friend kelly called me up today...she really annoys me, but i was so incredibly happy that someone called and wanted to talk to me!!
so i talked her ear off for an hour..since i haven't really had anyone to ramble to this week...*pitiful sigh*
by the way...on my drunken fiasco night i made out with her.. i must say that it was like kissing my sister! eww
no sparks or tingles whatsoever...i was quite drunk..i don't even think she's attractive...buuut anyway.
it was nice of her to call and let me chat away for awhile.
here's an amusing story for you all..my little sister, who i adore(she's 19)..just went away to college and she calls me almost every night and talks for hours...sometimes it gets kind of annoying..but i'm glad we are so close now..
but really i feel like i lead a totally secret life from her..haha i do really!
she's fairly religious, somewhat racist, and from what i've always thought...a total homophobe! but other than that ..she's cool. every time she comes to atlanta to visit me, i try to show her new things and different people..try and open her mind a bit..it seems to be working!
SO anyway last night she confesses to me that her friend brandy is bisexual..i just kinda giggled and said that was cool...
and she immediately goes "but of course i'm not like that!! i think lesbians are scary!" i keep my mouth shut..well i ask her why she feels that way...she says she just feels like they might be attracted to her. i laughed and said SO WWHAT! be flattered...they think you are cute..they aren't gonna rape you or anything! haha anyway...(this whole time i'm desperately wishing i could tell her the truth about myself and all the experiences i've had)..so then she tells me that the boys were egging her and brandy on about liking each other...she said she just laughed..but then brandy reaches over and feels her up!!! and so she did it back to her!
of course she said it didn't mean or do anything to her..
but i'm secretly laughing so hard...and cheering her on! if only she knew...*sigh*
one day i'll tell her, when i feel she's ready. today isn't the day to be disowned from my family.
anyway i think that's enough journal for now.
i miss you colette.
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binaryfiendsgone:
The south is different. I grew up in Texas and many of my Ex's and friends were from Arkansas, Georgia, etc. It seems like all of them have had to deal with family members not accepting there decisions, racism, and the like... I feel for you.
tatum:
My lord do I know how that is! My sister knows nothing of my sexuality, she completely thinks that sort of thing is the most digusting thing on the planet! We were in Wal-Mart and there was this lesbian couple and she started pointing them out and whispering like they were some kind of freak show. That hurts so badly that she would think of me like that only if she knew. She's just like my parents, always not tolerating anything "different" at all! I doubt I'll ever tell her unless I decide that I'm truly in love with a girl in the future or something. I'd most likely be disowned myself.