genevieve

i turn into this machine.
and i just keep taking this shit.
before you know it i'm gone.

GRRR!

I dont know if I may have committment issues or if I just really hate him! What?! Okay so, I'm hating him. I mean really, i'm sitting there seething at the sound of his voice...but then, i look at him and my heart just aches. Then, right on time, he says, "Whats the matter babe?" And i, of course, coldly reply "nothing" as i look away from him and it hurts to not be sweet. He says something to make me feel worse. Everytime. He says something like, "Aww come on, you love me?" and he grins. Or he's like, "I just didnt know if you were mad at me again." Again?! It must be me. It must be me. It must be me. So then I feel guilty for thinking of leaving him. And it makes me kind of nauseated...

I have to go take a shower...