gaslight

I just broke up with the most beautiful girl I've ever dated. The sex was incredible. She was absolutely the dirtiest most wild woman I've ever been with...down for everything. She is completely in love with me, would do anything for me, and lost her shit when I did it. The problem is, we do not connect on any other level. In conversation or intellectually I feel like I'm speaking to a child. All information has to be spoon-fed to her. She questioned everything I did or said, didn't trust me, and only saw things from her POV. I cannot live my life like that. I refuse to. If it means that now I'll be lonely and sexless again...fuck it. I can't fake it. I will not pretend to be content just to save someone else's feelings. It is what it is....