galen

As misunderstood as the voices in my head, Smitty continues to grace us with his presence in both our journals and now on the misogynistic SGTC board again. I think i speak for all of us when i say, we're lucky to have him around. This is for him.

i really don't
i mean to say
i don't know how
i got this way

i can't conceal
the scar you left
it doesn't heal
i do my best

no longer young
you grew me up
no longer good
i had to stop

misogyny
and waves of pain
still come and go
and come again

where are you now
i think i know
in bed with him
well i think so

my lazy morning
crumbles in
to self-disgust
and wallowing

how many days
how many years
how much time choking
back the tears

'tis better to
have loved and lost
than never loved
for all it cost

but worse to love
and lose
and then
to lose the will
to love again

w.m.