fuck

cant sleep again.

cant write.

cant draw.

trying to formulate the right mindset to get myself outta this funk.

being left handed is pissing me off.
i'm not patient by any means.

though i know its wrong i am trying to fit the triangle through the circular hole cause i know if i get it at the right angle i can make that shit work.

i cant even think straight.

and better yet, though i know i have certain people helping me get through this, the people i want and feel i need i've either pushed away, pissed off, or are in no way able to help. i'm smart, huh? here comes the best part, i did this all to myself, and i have to sleep in the bed i made. no problem but its a futon and i can't sleep. explain that.