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There are intrinsic qualities that great men and women have. These are qualities I think we all share yet most of us fail to realize in ourselves. Among these qualities are patience and determination. These are in fact key to success. Patience comes in to play when things start slowly or you experience set backs, which also requires determination. Without these to qualities, we would quit everything and experience very little success in our lives. But there is yet again something else that sets those men and woman who are in spots of success at higher levels than those that operate at normal day to day jobs and ability. Motivation and Drive, maybe that's the key. In a lot of cases, most these people have experienced something that most normal people haven't or maybe they just experienced it in a different way. The interpretation of the events lead them to continue to push past the setbacks and failures. This is not an easy task to do. To interpret an event in such a way that you use it as fuel for the fire in game of success.

"Save me from Ordinary. Save me from myself." A quote I use here. You can see it next my name here. I have all the tools here and ready for myself to use. Yet, I spin out of control. I experience constant set backs. The kind that demotivate and crush people. I don't give up though, like something deep inside me pushes and pushes to keep going and keep pushing, finding another way to reach beyond what I have here. It's not easy to stay positive. I battle that everyday and yet find a way to remain positive. I guess that's step one. Getting back to the quote though, I look at it and then at my life. My life has been anything but ordinary but at the same time I live below average and do below average things. This is not something I want. At 30 yrs old, I wish I would have played things by the book when I was younger. I had all the opportunities to succeed and do better than this. But I can't live in the past. I have to deal with the right now and right now the task at hand is very daunting. Especially at the current time. But I want more for myself. I just wonder how possible it is to turn things around at this point. I've been very good at self destructing and giving up but very poor at salvaging things and pushing through.

I guess we will see how it continues to go.I have things lined up and I want nothing more than to succeed.