fuck

So, I went to the tattoo shop friday and hung out, cause thats what i do. i get to hang out with some of the best dudes i know, and learn while i'm at it. unfortunately my whole tattoo thing with my buddy fell through but my other buddy john and i have a tattoo play date at his house where this time I will be tattooing for sure. hopefully it goes well. bill seems to think because i've been tattooed so much that i'll be alright. i guess we shall see. we talked and he said i should be able to get a job at a shop if i can get 5-7 good tattoos done. which is now my complete goal and focus. besides getting a temporary job somewhere. i have five people willing to get tattooed now, which is awesome that they have that much faith in me. John wants a grenade and some stuff to go around it. Ray wants some tribal stuff. Mat wants some tribal stuff. Shannen wants a rose and so does Art. I have the roses almost ready to go. Mat's tribal stuff is almost finished. and I have to get on Rays tribal and Johns grenade. I'm hoping that I get these tattoos done and done well. Tattooing is what I've always wanted to do. So here it goes.


I'm worried about my brother still but I havent been able to talk to him yet so I'm just keeping him in my thoughts. I'm just worried because I've always had to bail him out. He could never fight his own fights and I always had to step in and be like Sorry guy, I'm not letting you kick the shit out of my brother. Not gonna happen. whats worse about that is that when he came back, we went at it to see if he could "take em" and i beat the shit out of him. so him going to iraq worries me.


new music-
United Nations
New Earth Crisis (just what you would expect from them. Brutal. takes me back to being 15 again.)

relistening to-
Strife
American Nightmare (because of a thread in the Hardcore group)
Death Before Dishonor
Carpathian (even though i always listen to their Isolation record)