well fuck...
dude drama and drama and drama ensues.
hi can you bail me out of jail?
me- "i have no money"
crying and talks about needing someone to be there for her but saying it was alright and she found someone to bail her out.
me- thoughts to myself: fuck dude i was just about to completely seperate myself from this. now i feel like a dick doing it.
fuck. its not guilt. i have nothing to be guilty about. its that feeling of hopelessness and whatnot. i know what that feels like. i know that if i had had someone bail on me it would have crushed me. i'm no longer torn about what i'm doing, i am going to do it. its just i cant break from someone, not when they are down. not ever. if i'm going to seperate from someone completely its going to be clean and not like this. not when they are down and out. i know what that feels like to get hit from all sides. i know what it does to a person inside. i know how much it hurts and i wish that upon no one. not even my worst enemies.
i am not an empty shallow cold hearted prick. asshole yes. just not an empty shallow cold hearted prick.
update 7 hours later
shes still there. still needs to be bailed out. she catches an attitude with me over me not having money. knowing full well i dont have any that i spent a chunk of changed getting tattooed this weekend. now i'm not going to feel bad at all.
dude drama and drama and drama ensues.
hi can you bail me out of jail?
me- "i have no money"
crying and talks about needing someone to be there for her but saying it was alright and she found someone to bail her out.
me- thoughts to myself: fuck dude i was just about to completely seperate myself from this. now i feel like a dick doing it.
fuck. its not guilt. i have nothing to be guilty about. its that feeling of hopelessness and whatnot. i know what that feels like. i know that if i had had someone bail on me it would have crushed me. i'm no longer torn about what i'm doing, i am going to do it. its just i cant break from someone, not when they are down. not ever. if i'm going to seperate from someone completely its going to be clean and not like this. not when they are down and out. i know what that feels like to get hit from all sides. i know what it does to a person inside. i know how much it hurts and i wish that upon no one. not even my worst enemies.
i am not an empty shallow cold hearted prick. asshole yes. just not an empty shallow cold hearted prick.
update 7 hours later
shes still there. still needs to be bailed out. she catches an attitude with me over me not having money. knowing full well i dont have any that i spent a chunk of changed getting tattooed this weekend. now i'm not going to feel bad at all.
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robotlola:
thats very compassionate of you. a smart move, i think. it does you no good to get kick her out now, only to watch her hit bottom. might as well wait, you're a better man for it.
kellyjanice:
when you coming out you can kill 2 birds with one stone if you make it soon since tiki is staying with me for the moment